yeah i said it....fuck it

[missamyclay]

There are some people in my little world that I let continually hurt me. I cant cut them loose because whether I like it or not they are family and I love them. It doesnt matter how old I get and how "in control" I feel within seconds they manage to exploit my emotions until I feel infantile. And if one more fucking person tells me that I should be used to it or that its my fault for fucking caring I'm gonna punch them square in the mother fucking face regardless of how far I have to travel to do it!!!! I cant help but be hopeful that my family will stop being selfish little pricks. And for the moments that they are sweet, fun and caring...I love them. I suppose I'll take what I can get because at least I have them at all right?.....right?

fuck feeling like this

btw............went to Martha's Vineyard this week. Its pretty. I'll post pics on my flickr acct eventually.