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i'm not really a religious person. sure, i love the jews but i don't really believe in god so much, or at all.
however, it has not stopped pouring all day. a huge part of me would like to think this is god crying, and feeling incredibly guilty and terrible for doing this to my family. today was the hardest day of my life thus far and i really don't think it's ever going to get worse than this. to put an optimistic spin on things, i don't think it's going to get any worse than this.
over 350 people signed the guest book today, and there were people there whose names were not in the guestbook. it was truly incredible.
it's probably pretty weird to be writing in livejournal the same day you buried your brother, but for some reason, i felt it was necessary, particularly since the topic of conversation today focused mainly on adam and his blog. so i'm not a horrible person. or at least i'd like to think so.
however, it has not stopped pouring all day. a huge part of me would like to think this is god crying, and feeling incredibly guilty and terrible for doing this to my family. today was the hardest day of my life thus far and i really don't think it's ever going to get worse than this. to put an optimistic spin on things, i don't think it's going to get any worse than this.
over 350 people signed the guest book today, and there were people there whose names were not in the guestbook. it was truly incredible.
it's probably pretty weird to be writing in livejournal the same day you buried your brother, but for some reason, i felt it was necessary, particularly since the topic of conversation today focused mainly on adam and his blog. so i'm not a horrible person. or at least i'd like to think so.