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I've abondoned this thing since I've been home on break... just haven't been in the 'lj' mood.
Since I've been home, I've done nothing (up until today that is, I'll get to that shortly). I guess I can contribute my hours of boredom unproductivity to the snow, which THANK GOD is gone now. I hate the snow. It makes me bored, lonely, and depressed... I'm tired of reading in everyone's LJ's, "OOOH the snow is so beautiful, yada yada yada." Well, F the snow, I hate it, I am moving to the beach!
Seriously though, I hate being trapped in this house with nothing to do. I end up devoting hours upon hours just thinking, which leads to depression, with leads to "bitchy" (Jeff's words) Aimee. I have been so mean to Jeff these passed few days, and I don't have intentions of hurting him... I just get in these moods where I can't control my words, feelings, or actions. Thank God he is understanding. I think along with the rest of my family, he has come to learn my pattern of unstable moods and emotions. Fuck BPD.
Anyway, complain complain complain... seems like that's all I'm good for nowadays.
So today I finally got out of the house. Jeff & I ventured to Johnson City so we could finish up our Christmas shopping. I think I've got everyone on my list provided for, with the exception of my aunts. I'm still unsure what to get them. I tell ya, it's times like these when having a big family is a major negative. I am spent out.
I am so bored. I hope my parents get home soon so I can have someone to play Jeopardy with (I know, I know... I'm a loser). It's times like these I miss my dear friend christy_d_b. :)
Since I've been home, I've done nothing (up until today that is, I'll get to that shortly). I guess I can contribute my hours of boredom unproductivity to the snow, which THANK GOD is gone now. I hate the snow. It makes me bored, lonely, and depressed... I'm tired of reading in everyone's LJ's, "OOOH the snow is so beautiful, yada yada yada." Well, F the snow, I hate it, I am moving to the beach!
Seriously though, I hate being trapped in this house with nothing to do. I end up devoting hours upon hours just thinking, which leads to depression, with leads to "bitchy" (Jeff's words) Aimee. I have been so mean to Jeff these passed few days, and I don't have intentions of hurting him... I just get in these moods where I can't control my words, feelings, or actions. Thank God he is understanding. I think along with the rest of my family, he has come to learn my pattern of unstable moods and emotions. Fuck BPD.
Anyway, complain complain complain... seems like that's all I'm good for nowadays.
So today I finally got out of the house. Jeff & I ventured to Johnson City so we could finish up our Christmas shopping. I think I've got everyone on my list provided for, with the exception of my aunts. I'm still unsure what to get them. I tell ya, it's times like these when having a big family is a major negative. I am spent out.
I am so bored. I hope my parents get home soon so I can have someone to play Jeopardy with (I know, I know... I'm a loser). It's times like these I miss my dear friend christy_d_b. :)