wow
so it seems i utterly abandoned this format at least 2 years ago
i could ponder why
which could lead to pondering why I was on this site at
i say it was to utilize as a journal. i was selfindulgent and self absorbed in my entries but it was an outside group that led me here and in some way or another i was always expressing/performing for a group whom i thought were/could be reading. entries garnering no comments made me second guess myself.
journaling led to blogging/ peeps with journals wanted you to read there blog. you read/scanned people you 'knew' list of friends and 'made' new friends. Folks did and didn't track adds/deletes.
Scandals and secrets developed (sometimes/almost wholly) from these "here" interactions.
my high school drama seemed so lane. a guy i slept with had access to my journal. then, later, so did his at the time GF. I stopped writing b/c i started to care less and less about other people's journals. And even as i used this more and more as my place to vent my silly tiny crap the more and more I had nop patience for others crap nor did I want to be so exposed to people in my real world.
Diaries are where you whine but if all your friends can log on to your whining well then isn't it natural to start hedging.
in addition, if the tone has been set as "A Diary" then using this as a format to practice op-ed pieces or the things we now use our blogs for is awkward. its hard to come across with a hardline point of view if you've only got 10 people reading your journal and the last time they dropped by you were going on about BJs or something
any way everyone's on me about my blog idea being good and how its an intelligent step (for lack of better term) towards getting my dream job.
i could ponder why
which could lead to pondering why I was on this site at
i say it was to utilize as a journal. i was selfindulgent and self absorbed in my entries but it was an outside group that led me here and in some way or another i was always expressing/performing for a group whom i thought were/could be reading. entries garnering no comments made me second guess myself.
journaling led to blogging/ peeps with journals wanted you to read there blog. you read/scanned people you 'knew' list of friends and 'made' new friends. Folks did and didn't track adds/deletes.
Scandals and secrets developed (sometimes/almost wholly) from these "here" interactions.
my high school drama seemed so lane. a guy i slept with had access to my journal. then, later, so did his at the time GF. I stopped writing b/c i started to care less and less about other people's journals. And even as i used this more and more as my place to vent my silly tiny crap the more and more I had nop patience for others crap nor did I want to be so exposed to people in my real world.
Diaries are where you whine but if all your friends can log on to your whining well then isn't it natural to start hedging.
in addition, if the tone has been set as "A Diary" then using this as a format to practice op-ed pieces or the things we now use our blogs for is awkward. its hard to come across with a hardline point of view if you've only got 10 people reading your journal and the last time they dropped by you were going on about BJs or something
any way everyone's on me about my blog idea being good and how its an intelligent step (for lack of better term) towards getting my dream job.