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so i;m doing anything but getting ready to go to B's to go out to dinner. And part of what i'm doing is killing my appetite so the urge to trek half an hour to meet him to go drive another 20 minutes to eat is less than appealing. Anything invovling leaving my house is less than appealing. I'm not spending enough alone time. Well endless alone time. I get plenty of alone time before i have to go be somewhere. which is technically true about anything and anyone. But I mean I don;t get a whole day to sit in my house and veg and vag out too often. And B wants to tear me from this womb to go to a town i grew up in to then travel to a town i work in 5 days a week, where i was last night. where i don;t have to drive back to until wednesday. driving may be the operative word. if i could poof myself there i think i'd be more okay with leaving here. the traveling part sucks.
So i told Pugs how i think we're married on Earth 2 and it freaked him out. Or weirded him out. I'm not sure why. it could be that i'm simply having any sort of random thoughts about him that he finds odd or he might find it a suspect statement and think i'm talking in some kind of code that means i want to be with him. Which i don't. at least i don't think i do. certainly not enough to suggest he leave his G. if he were available it would be a different thought process altogether. And then, well it wouldn't be idle fantasy it would "should i make a play for pugs since we seem to have this weird "thing" between us that lots of people can see and comment on". and even then who he is today, his life, isn;t a package it want. its awful to "say out loud" but its too big a thing that he has a kid.
whatever i should shower. i think its gonna rain. joy.
So i told Pugs how i think we're married on Earth 2 and it freaked him out. Or weirded him out. I'm not sure why. it could be that i'm simply having any sort of random thoughts about him that he finds odd or he might find it a suspect statement and think i'm talking in some kind of code that means i want to be with him. Which i don't. at least i don't think i do. certainly not enough to suggest he leave his G. if he were available it would be a different thought process altogether. And then, well it wouldn't be idle fantasy it would "should i make a play for pugs since we seem to have this weird "thing" between us that lots of people can see and comment on". and even then who he is today, his life, isn;t a package it want. its awful to "say out loud" but its too big a thing that he has a kid.
whatever i should shower. i think its gonna rain. joy.