i'm my own worst enemy
why am i so fucking insecure?! Even im starting to get tired of it, i don't even know how that can work unless there are like multiple mes in my head. Which would actually make a whole of a lot more sense if i was just being possessed by someone else at the same time as being me. But its not and the truth seems even more complicated to understand then fantasy. I am just so god damn sick of dealing with all the crap floating through my head constantly now. why can't i just take something at face value? why do i always look for a double meaning? or think it's a lie? the constant doubts and conspiracy theories! i am sick of thinking this way, i do not want my brain to function this way. But this is how its been for so long i dont even know how to not think this way. It's like there is this being in me, this parasite living off my soul, who refuses to let me be happy. Does anyone know how to perform an exorcism?!