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I'm sorry for this long post, but I really need to get this out of my chest.
Sometimes I wonder why I put up with some people. Do I hate anyone now that I didn't hate this time last year? Well, hate is not exactly the word, disappointment would be more adequate, and I don't like this person for almost 2 years.
I met a girl 5 years ago, she was knew at my school, and me and my friends befriended her. She was one of my best friends till 2007, when things started to fall apart. In this year she became distant, didn't spend her free time with me, she was rude to everyone, especially me and (this is what bugged me the most) she suddenly became BBF with an hypocritical girl she always criticized behind her back. Hypocritical Girl was a really awful person, but it was not right of my friend to talk bad things behind her back.
At the time, me and my friends lost our pacience and sat down with her to talk. Everyone resolved their problems, myself included, and everything came back to normal. But not for me. Even though I made piece with her, deep down I knew things would never be the same, I still wasn't comfortable with the situation I was in and to make things worse, there was this little voice inside my head saying that I knew I would never be friends with her again. However, being the stupid naive person that I am, I ignored the warning.
Then 2008 came along and my 'friend' passed the limits. She started doing the same things that were pissing me off in the year before, and she started being rude to other friends of mine that she didn't like. There was a boy at our class that we all had trouble understanding (because he had a really bad accent), and one day he joked with the teacher and my friend said: "The subtitles, please!" I was pretty pissed, I was furious. That boy is simply one of the most sweet persons on this planet she had no right talking to him like that. But being the person I am, I just let it go.
Some days after that. The school moved me to another classroom. My "friend" started saying bad things about my beloved new classroom at my face. Saying how we never studied, how we were lazy and how we would never be in an university that way, among other things. Those were so untrue! When she finished her sermon I was so angry, I don't even remember what I said, but I said something to her and came back to my classroom. Then, later in the day, I discovered that she called me a fake person. WTF?! Who is the person that befriends someone she didn't like, act like that person were her best friend to then come up to me and say bad things about that same person?!
I went almost a month without speaking a word to her when she came up to me and said that we needed to talk. I said ok. We talked and talked, till I asked her why she said I was fake behind my back. Then she made up some silly excuse that deep down, I never really believed. Conclusion? I forgave her again, but I still didn't trust her. At the end of the year was my turn to screw things up, I said something I shouldn't but I apologised, and she accepted my apologies.
Then 2009 came, together with uni, and each of us followed their own paths. Problem is, everytime I tried to talk to her she ignored me. COMPLETELY. And then, another friend started doing the same. And those 2 people became inseparable. And after five months of trying to reach them, I finally listened to that little voice inside my head that I ignored 2 years ago, and said in a capslock: FUCK IT. I don't fucking care anymore about her.
I've had enough. I tried being friends with her for 3 times, it didn't work, and you know what fuck it. JUST FUCK IT. And then 8th of october came along, she had a birthday party and didn't invite me. I know it sounds silly but it isn't. Imagine if one of your best friends didn't invite you for their birthday party! And she and a part of my friends started to go out and NEVER invited me to go along. NEVER, NEVER, NEVER! And even though I'm not friends with her anymore, I don't mind going out with her if there's a big group there. I treat people well even though I don't like them.
And I kept wondering how things have gotten this bad, how did she changed, when it hit it. THINGS NEVER CHANGED. They were the same even when I met her, I just didn't notice it. Now I realise she was always like this. She's embarassed to go out with her boyfriend with us, she's an hypocrite, she says things she don't mean it and she has a really bad character.
I don't want someone like that in my life. I'm not her friend, even though she still thinks I am. And I know that things like not inviting me to her birthday shouldn't hurt me, it does. I'm still sad whenever she do things that don't include me (everything she does XD) and it angers me, because I know and decided I don't want her to be a part of my life, but still... I'm naive enough to be hurt.
Sometimes I wonder why I put up with some people. Do I hate anyone now that I didn't hate this time last year? Well, hate is not exactly the word, disappointment would be more adequate, and I don't like this person for almost 2 years.
I met a girl 5 years ago, she was knew at my school, and me and my friends befriended her. She was one of my best friends till 2007, when things started to fall apart. In this year she became distant, didn't spend her free time with me, she was rude to everyone, especially me and (this is what bugged me the most) she suddenly became BBF with an hypocritical girl she always criticized behind her back. Hypocritical Girl was a really awful person, but it was not right of my friend to talk bad things behind her back.
At the time, me and my friends lost our pacience and sat down with her to talk. Everyone resolved their problems, myself included, and everything came back to normal. But not for me. Even though I made piece with her, deep down I knew things would never be the same, I still wasn't comfortable with the situation I was in and to make things worse, there was this little voice inside my head saying that I knew I would never be friends with her again. However, being the stupid naive person that I am, I ignored the warning.
Then 2008 came along and my 'friend' passed the limits. She started doing the same things that were pissing me off in the year before, and she started being rude to other friends of mine that she didn't like. There was a boy at our class that we all had trouble understanding (because he had a really bad accent), and one day he joked with the teacher and my friend said: "The subtitles, please!" I was pretty pissed, I was furious. That boy is simply one of the most sweet persons on this planet she had no right talking to him like that. But being the person I am, I just let it go.
Some days after that. The school moved me to another classroom. My "friend" started saying bad things about my beloved new classroom at my face. Saying how we never studied, how we were lazy and how we would never be in an university that way, among other things. Those were so untrue! When she finished her sermon I was so angry, I don't even remember what I said, but I said something to her and came back to my classroom. Then, later in the day, I discovered that she called me a fake person. WTF?! Who is the person that befriends someone she didn't like, act like that person were her best friend to then come up to me and say bad things about that same person?!
I went almost a month without speaking a word to her when she came up to me and said that we needed to talk. I said ok. We talked and talked, till I asked her why she said I was fake behind my back. Then she made up some silly excuse that deep down, I never really believed. Conclusion? I forgave her again, but I still didn't trust her. At the end of the year was my turn to screw things up, I said something I shouldn't but I apologised, and she accepted my apologies.
Then 2009 came, together with uni, and each of us followed their own paths. Problem is, everytime I tried to talk to her she ignored me. COMPLETELY. And then, another friend started doing the same. And those 2 people became inseparable. And after five months of trying to reach them, I finally listened to that little voice inside my head that I ignored 2 years ago, and said in a capslock: FUCK IT. I don't fucking care anymore about her.
I've had enough. I tried being friends with her for 3 times, it didn't work, and you know what fuck it. JUST FUCK IT. And then 8th of october came along, she had a birthday party and didn't invite me. I know it sounds silly but it isn't. Imagine if one of your best friends didn't invite you for their birthday party! And she and a part of my friends started to go out and NEVER invited me to go along. NEVER, NEVER, NEVER! And even though I'm not friends with her anymore, I don't mind going out with her if there's a big group there. I treat people well even though I don't like them.
And I kept wondering how things have gotten this bad, how did she changed, when it hit it. THINGS NEVER CHANGED. They were the same even when I met her, I just didn't notice it. Now I realise she was always like this. She's embarassed to go out with her boyfriend with us, she's an hypocrite, she says things she don't mean it and she has a really bad character.
I don't want someone like that in my life. I'm not her friend, even though she still thinks I am. And I know that things like not inviting me to her birthday shouldn't hurt me, it does. I'm still sad whenever she do things that don't include me (everything she does XD) and it angers me, because I know and decided I don't want her to be a part of my life, but still... I'm naive enough to be hurt.