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called sick, then had day off. still sick. still can't talk. to top it off, after taking a hot shower to try to drain some of the crap out of my lungs, i knocked a sculpture off the wall. the cabinet door had jammed, and when i tried to straighten it out to slide it back, my elbow knocked the fish. now even acknowledging my lack of coordination- arguably it'd even be difficult for a coordinated person to catch a slippery sculpture with wet hands and with 20/400something+ vision and no glasses.
so besides holiday depression and just generally feeling like shit, i'm in deep shit for being careless and trying to do things too quickly. (her words, not mine).
it's like i've just fucked up my life beyond fixing, i either want to start over or just end it before i'm too screwed, you know?
so besides holiday depression and just generally feeling like shit, i'm in deep shit for being careless and trying to do things too quickly. (her words, not mine).
it's like i've just fucked up my life beyond fixing, i either want to start over or just end it before i'm too screwed, you know?