What the hell is wrong with me?

[miss_sydney]

When I look at you,
what I always see
is the face of someone else
who once belonged to me.
Still, I can hear him laugh,
And even though that melody plays on,
He's gone.

When I look at you,
He is standing there.
I can almost breathe him in
Like summer in the air.
Why do you smile his smile?
That heaven I'd forgotten eases through
In you.

If you could look at me once more
With all the love you felt before;
If you and I could disappear into the past
And find that love we knew,
I'd never take my eyes away from you.

When I look at you,
He is touching me
I would reach for him,
But who can hold a memory?
And love isn't everything
That moonlight on the bed will melt away
someday.

Oh, you were once that someone
Who I followed like a star.
But suddenly, you changed
And now I don't know who you are.
Or could it be
That I never really knew you from the start?

Did I create a dream?
Was he a fantasy?
Even a memory is paradise
For all the fools like me.

Now remembering is all that I can do.
Because I miss him so when I look at you.