And I can't stand the pain...
The trees stand tall around me and from above the setting sun the stars dot the sky. The darkness is falling down to the ground. And for that moment it is all quiet, it is all quite still. Then the wildlife screams and haunting calls can be heard in the deep crevices of my mind. What is in the dark? Sights unseen and beings my eyes can not find. Things unknown in which mystery will keep. Then worry starts to creep into my soul. I just want to sleep. Close my eyes and fall into an even darker misery. As I crawl into the tent, the real meaning of fear unrolls. And I realize there is no need to repent that this revelation was Heaven sent. While I drift the horror of the night vanishes into the even darker shade of my eyelids. The screams of the wild are lost within the words that echo in my ears. I do not know what scares me more. And so I find myself in my nightmare..."You look beautiful." He smiled at me. But never again would I be there and I wake with a start to the comfort of the night. Life is so unfair. Now I'm aware that my greatest fear is already past- he broke my heart and he didn't even care.