Why?
When everything is perfect and I have absolutely nothing to worry about, why do I decide to lose my mind? I question the one thing in my life that I know will always be there. I'm worried about something messing up, and my worrying is what's gonna mess something up. Pray for me that I don't have another brain-fart. I'm going to cause too many problems if I don't stop being like this. I know he loves me and he's not going to leave me...there's no logical reason for me being stupid. I've never been happier and I never want it to change. I just hope he can always forgive me when I decide to freak out for no reason. It will pass...it will hopefully never come again. I'm trying...I'm working on it...this is the first time I've done it in a long time, so I know I'm getting better. I just wish I could never do it again. Things would be a lot better...even better than they already are. Everything about our relationship is perfect...I just seem to put a bump in the road on occasion...but the road always straightens out again. No more bumps...