*sigh*
Last night I went out for a cuppa with Kai Lin, at Raffles TCC, where Shawn was working. We talked about a few things. Shawn then came over to take my order, and I told him I wanted an iced coffee, and he was all "No I won't let you order that, it's like stout, so much bubbles on top!" I went on to order an iced choc frappe, and he said, "No." >_> Then I said I wanted a minty mocha, he said, "Are you sure?" I replied, "Dammit, Shawn! I'm bored of TCC's menu, so hurry up!" XD
Shawn and Kai Lin make me realise that both the guy and the girl can still be great friends after breaking up... though I keep getting the vibe that both of them still like each other.
I couldn't help but feel sad when I watched Kai Lin teasing Shawn and Shawn reaching out to grab her sides... they are still very lovey-dovey, no matter how much Kai Lin says otherwise. Made me wonder why I can't maintain such a relatonship with the guy whom I've ended things with and yet I still like him a lot.
You see, love does NOT equate to like, even though they could mean the same thing if spoken with different emotions... but I would like to think that I'm too young to love anyone, and I'm unable to commit to a relationship. Like what Kai Lin says, since we are young, we should play the field! And when we're tired of it, we'll try to settle down.
But I'm tired. I don't want to go out on meaningless dates that at the end of the day comes down to naught. My idea of a time-out with my loved one is a stroll at the beach, or settle down on a bench at the park, cuddle up and talk about anything in the world. That was how it was with Joko and me, and I'd loved that feeling, he'd breathed words on my skin, the prickly feeling whenever he rubbed his chin against my cheek.
With my expectations, at the end of the day, I will still be alone.
Shawn and Kai Lin make me realise that both the guy and the girl can still be great friends after breaking up... though I keep getting the vibe that both of them still like each other.
I couldn't help but feel sad when I watched Kai Lin teasing Shawn and Shawn reaching out to grab her sides... they are still very lovey-dovey, no matter how much Kai Lin says otherwise. Made me wonder why I can't maintain such a relatonship with the guy whom I've ended things with and yet I still like him a lot.
You see, love does NOT equate to like, even though they could mean the same thing if spoken with different emotions... but I would like to think that I'm too young to love anyone, and I'm unable to commit to a relationship. Like what Kai Lin says, since we are young, we should play the field! And when we're tired of it, we'll try to settle down.
But I'm tired. I don't want to go out on meaningless dates that at the end of the day comes down to naught. My idea of a time-out with my loved one is a stroll at the beach, or settle down on a bench at the park, cuddle up and talk about anything in the world. That was how it was with Joko and me, and I'd loved that feeling, he'd breathed words on my skin, the prickly feeling whenever he rubbed his chin against my cheek.
With my expectations, at the end of the day, I will still be alone.