Rainy Days
Today's weather sucked, so depressingly gloomy. I think people's moods severly depend on the weather. I hope there is more sunny days before Freddy time.
I started back to work today, and I would be lying if I did not say I am extremely exhausted and not motivated to continue the seven loads of laundry I have awaiting me. Work was good, its comforting to know exactly what you are going to be doing for eight hours, very uneventful. I noticed one thing that was rather halarious though. If you want to tell if people are lying to you watch for the head nod. Not sure what I mean? Well for example everyone at work said, "You look great" while cautiously nodding their head in a slow inverted motion. How could I tell they weren't telling the truth? Because I replied, lying, "Yeah I feel great" while cautiously nodding my head. ha ha ha.
I have a catscan on Friday at 9:30am, so wish me luck. If all goes well and there is no infection I am that much closer to staying Chron's free and recovering healthily. God I hope they don't find anything, I can't stand another second in the hospital, I will break down mentally, its such a depressing and all consuming place. Those who have spent anytime there understand me. The seconds last for hours and everything seems to be trapped in its own world.
I think Friday night I am having a BBQ/drinking get together with all of my friends to celebrate the birthday I missed, and yes I will be drinking, and yes it will be sloppy :) Angie, Tasha, and Megan will probably go from work which is good cause I love those girls!!!! Angela can't go so we are fighting (just kidding girl). I was talking to Rox today she is in Hali and will be in PEI soon and we are going out for dinner, yummmmmmmm Pat and Willys. I miss her like crazy and haven't seen her in ages (since she travels more than she stays still!). Her and I have been friends for awhile now (at least two years) she has been teaching in Columbia for the past year though and I haven't seen her as much so I can't wait to hear all of her stories!
Most of my friends make fun of me because the majority of my friends are in their mid twenties (or in Jen's case 34 he he he). I think I relate more to older people, not that I am as mature by any means, I am just drawn to people's life stories, and typically the older you are the more you have experienced. I guess I feel like a thirty year old stuck in a nineteen year old's body, is that weird? I don't really care if it is, one thing I have decided is that age doesn't matter, situations don't matter, experiences for the most part don't matter, everyone in this world can find something in everybody else and relate.
Well this is long and I am sure most of you are bored. But there is one more thing I have to pass on. Let people know you care about them, its really important. It's what keeps best friends who are far away close at heart, its what keeps families sane, its what makes memories matter, and its what changes lives. I mean it. Thank you and know that you will always be in my heart and on my mind.