A truth I cannot erase...
News.. hmmm.. last night I went out to eat with Jen, Pat and Willy's it was great!!! Then I was going to go to Jamie's party but I decided I was an old lady and needed my sleep, so I went to the gym then went to bed early.. not before getting into a clossial fight with my mother..
Did you ever feel like nobody in the world could understand the way you felt at a particular moment, and that the worst part of the whole situation is that there is no words or emotions to explain it, it just exists inside of you and dictates your actions subconsciously.. perhaps thats the paranoid schizophrenia kicking in haha.
Its not that these feelings I have are remotely depression, its just the feeling of incompleteness.. of wanting and needing and being unable to determine what the wants or needs actually consist of or if I am able to achieve them at all..
I feel content just knowing that my fortune is better than most... the problem... I CANT DECIDE WHAT MY FORTUNE IS.