Thinking outside the box
Hello all, I am in a rather contemplative mood as indicated by my mood icon below. I don't know where to start really. I have so much thoughts overcoming my visions in life that its hard to see clear, I am thinking that my intricate thought processing may be attributing to my migraines, only the catscans will tell, which I recieve Monday (ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh).
I think about a lot of stuff, the run of the mill, boggle you brain, is it possible, thoughts. I think I am at a stage in my life that most people reach. When I was younger I questioned things, knowing that it would be a couple years before the world would invite me in and I would face actual hardships. But now I am at a point where I see my actions actually reflect who I am, and can potentially change my path to what I want to be.
I think about how important it is to be in a relationship with someone who understands you. Who doesn't question your ideas, but challenges you in a way that nobody else is capable of. Who pushes you to better yourself and who at the same time accepts your faults with pride. It is important to feel appreciated but also to feel understood for what you truly are. I think I found this person, I am not sure, but I hope so.
I think about how much school matters. Maybe not to everyone, but to me. But it matters in a different way than it did for me before. I realize its not about getting straight A's but about enjoying the experience. Learning from lectures, questioning the way you viewed subjects before, making new connections with people, etc. etc. Its not about the power to succeed but about learning through the journey.
I think about how lucky we are to have the friends and families that we have. If your family sucks you usually have great support from friends who become your second family, if your friends backstab you usually have a wonderful family who cheers you up. In my case, I am lucky to have both.
I think about a lot of things that make life interesting, but most of all, I think to myself, "there is so much out there that I will never know, but I am lucky to have the experiences I do... they make me a better person".