Trapped Earth
Scanned too dark and one of the scans (there were 4) turned out really weird so they didn't meet up and so you do not get to see the floor (which is not really exciting anyway). This whole painting was like a big tease. The industrial background has made me in a painting pvc clothes mood and then I had to stay with my original concept and make her in a little white thing and all purple.
Yesterday was the first day in a long time that felt long, that didn't feel like I got up and then just went to sleep right away. It was more relaxing than my whole spring break, somehow. I didn't even do much over spring break. It's warm now, 70, and the cats are happy and I'm happy and we spent a lot of the day outside. Kachina likes to go up to the playground near the school we live behind and she gets all needy and follows me and my dad around and skitters and follows the basketballs sliding around the pavement. I want to write a little kid's book about a girl following her cat who takes her on adventures into the ocean and the jungle and the moon. Everything would be bright and green with long blue shadows like late afternoon, all illuminated. It's prettiest then.
I want to draw everything all the time. I want to draw all the grass and my hands with their little lines like paths for little germs, like highways, like a maze. I see things in colors and shades and techniques and stare at things and try to figure out how I could copy them onto paper. My dad says artists don't need drugs because they already see things different. I think my brain thinks I am on drugs and that's why I think weird, even though I am not on drugs.
I like chalk pastels now, they are really soft and swooshy. I drew the hydrangeas I posted yesterday for my mom, her birthday is next Saturday. We went to Home Depot which is my dad's favorite store (lol) and got paint for the bathroom. I am giving it a french theme, the walls will be pink and the trim black and the accents black and the ceiling cream. Mostly because we have a big clawfoot bathtub and I am the only one in this house with a sense of design.
We also got flowers. We got mountain laurel and rhodendron to put in front of the house. I think they're ugly but we need something there and no way are my precious hydangeas going next to an ugly building. We also got a pear tree and a crabapple tree, they were $10 each! For a tree! And then I got pretty soft red pansies, even though I don't like pansies, I don't like pansies when they have too many colors. I got pretty pink poof flowers and I think little white violets. And heather, I think maybe. I don't know where they are going I just want to draw them. I need more work to put in a portfolio to be judged for something and I feel like I don't have anything any good to put in it so maybe I'll do a chalk pastel piece since they are fast.
Today I'm going with my dad to find me a book on acrylics and find things for my mom. I need to go shopping for summer clothes. I really want more light dresses, I have a few but not enough. I want to spend the summer in dresses, they are the most comfortable. I can't really make my own but I can modify ones I buy. So they don't have to be interesting. I also need a new purse. I want a coffin purse. And then my life will be complete (or at least my little collection of purses will, and then I will have a purse that goes with my clothes)