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- Glens ex is pregnant too him...truth or not im not sure...
- I still love him like crazy
- i think im hurt...
- i hate myself for not being able to have him
- i hate him for doing this too me
- i hate her cause shes a slut and fucks him around and fucks him and falls pregnant.
- i want to push her down stairs
- i want him to love me
- tell me the truth
- hold me and tell me everything is alright
- cause i dont feel it is
- im cold
- im lonely and bored
- my brains is thinking about stuipd things
- i went too see my nana and she is laying their lifeless resting
- i had to leave
- moiton city soundtrack are making me slightly smile
- they are a good band i really like.
- im babbling
- i hate sarah(glens ex)
I wonder why it is that i know he lies to me about everything single thing in his life...even the fact he was slightly attracted too me...but why did i believe him and when he told me he loved me i said i love you too...then five mins later he would say eb...i love you...so much! and id believe it...why?...deep down i know its not true well now i do anyway cause how can you just stop loving someone...cause your ex in pregnant just cause she is having a baby doesnt mean i have to be brushed away right?...how do i change any of this...but then again im not exactly sure i want something with him...i dont know...i dont wanna say i want time to think cause i do.not.want.to.think about anything at all...
Last night i couldnt sleep...i could stop thinking...which lead too crying...glens calmed me down yet he was drunk and talked about random shit. like blue and green shoes or something along them lines...i cried and told him i love him so much it hurts...he told me i made me happy and that onenight after we spoke was the first night he didnt cry himself too sleep since his mum died...and said i love you eb...what am i too believe? what am i too say?...things never get better they always get worse. no matter how hard you try so my advice never try anything. be afraid of boys cause they have power and they are poo.