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you are fucked.
you made me think all my life that you were always right.
but now i actually see that you just think you are right about everything and think you're so perfect.
You want me to be open minded? I have been seeing life from another family's point of view..
And it makes so much more sense.
All kids say that they will never be like their parents. I meant it when I was 10 and I still mean it now.
mom can't defend herself. She always has to agree with you. If she doesnt, you lecture her and try and prove how you are right until she HAS to agree with you
or else you will NEVER stop talking about it.
You do it to everyone.
You are right about somethings, I will admit. But just because you are the parent and I am the teenager, does mean that you are right.
You really think that automatically makes you right.
Please treat me like an adult, not a kid.
Everyone has grown up except for me, because of you.
Yes, I am blaming it all on you. Of course some of it's me, but you have been a huge influence
and that is what I'm blaming you for.
Your opinion is not the right one... isnt that what an opinion is? Your own thoughts and beliefs on a certain subject?
You can express your opinion- you can't force it upon everyone else, and expect everyone to agree with you.
Now I know why you've hidden me from everything- it makes you sound like you are right because I don't hear anything from anyone else.
Im sorry. Everyone, even my old best friend that you loved so much, thinks that you need to grow up.
And I never saw it, because I have been stuck in this house for almost 19 years with you, your opinion, and no one elses.
Not everyone is perfect. Trust me, you are farther away from perfect than a lot of people.
I used to be afraid of you. But now.. I just can't stand it.
You try and talk to me like youre so grown up and mature... but I almost can't take you seriously anymore.
There are things I have wished for for my whole life... and they have been the most horrible things ever.
I feel bad that I ever thought them.. but now I know why I did.
I'm not saying I'm better than you, I'm just saying I'm different.
Things happen for a reason... I truly, truly believe that. You may see something happening, and change the situation.
The situation has not changed because you decided it would, it changed for a reason. Maybe to make you a better person,
maybe to make you see something from a different perspective.
I will always wonder why, since as far back as I can remember (and i can remember pretty damn far...)
why did I always wonder and wish I was adopted?
i want your way of thinking completely out of my life.
the horrible habits you have taught me.
and i promise I am going to get rid of them.
i will not judge people based on how they look, talk or dress. Why did you teach me to do that?
I will not think I am a better person than everyone else - you did and now look at you.
you have no friends, because you couldnt find anyone who measured up to you.. and anyone better than you
cant be your friend because if youre not the best, then you hate them.
I will not treat my children like 3 year olds for their whole lives - they have to grow up or they will be stuck with the mind of a child for the rest of their lives!!
the list goes on...and on.. but in the end, all it really means is that
i promise, i am NEVER going to be like you.
i actually want people to like me... instead of being stuck in my own little world, like you
thinking life is horrible, hard, so complicated and tough.
GET OVER YOURSELF AND HAVE FUN
and thanks for making me realize what I have been missing
it's too bad that it took so long.