drama has started!
ok, so remember the good news that would bring a "rein of drama over my life", well the drama has started. Im not too bothered sober, but drunk it gets me down. I HATE BOYS!!! (coz i love them too much)! (although not as much as i love pete)! lol but all tell you about that in a minute!...
so last night ian's bday night out in the shed (although hardly saw ian)! everyone was there, natz came down to mine, we picked linz & koist up n headed to johns. of course emz was there, as well as pete, then holz & then fi. missed anyone? then to the shed after loadsa drinking. me n koisty are loved, got 2 fat frogs with a shot of vodka each for £5.40 coz the guy serving is leaving & was like "fuck it am leaving anyways"! yaaaaaasssss! then me & the girlies stared at the hot new bouncer for aaaaagggeeeeeeesssss! lol & danced some, told some random my joke, but totally fucked it up so he thot i was silly! lol met johnny n mark, also stephen & alex & linzoy kerr, love that girl, you should come out with us more woman! holz got EXTREAMLY drunk, jumped on koisty & they both decked it...ON MY FOOT!!! fuckin killin me, so holz got chucked out! silly girl! had lotsa fun, was loving it. then came the drama (after a reeeeeeeaaaaallly good night tho, dont get me wrong didnt ruin anythin at all)...
Basically... (WARNING - I AM ABOUT TO RABBIT ON ABOUT BOYS...WELL ONE INPARTICULAR)!
So i kinda like mark (wako jako's pal). we just get on really well & could talk forever & never get bored. At first (& still i supose) it was just a total crush thing. But he totally started it! (although he says i did - DID SOOOOO NOT MATE)! putting your hand on someones bum whilst talkin & taking their hand goin up stairs is so starting something, not just kiddy on flirting like i was doin. actions speak louder than words! anyways so kinda had a wee thing for him for a wee while now.
to cut a potentially long story short. koist was talkin 2 him & he said he liked me, but he's just scared of the age gap (apparently he's nearly 2 years younger)! shockin i no! but it's not even like that for me, i mean i would not say no! lol but i dont want to just grab him n do all kinds of things to him like i do the new bouncer at da shed! lol (oh oh his name is james)!
aaaannnnnnneeeeeeeeeeways, i just like spendin time wit him, ya no? so i was talkin 2 johnny last night n he was like "he does like you"..."aye, so thats why he's not talked to me all night" (i have to admit i wasnt tryin very hard to talk to him either, so cant totally blame that on him)!..."he does, he's just shy. u have to make the 1st move"...."no way, im not putting myself out there, to get shot down"
(all this time mark was dancing with some other girl, no where near us - dunno if it was like that, but i wasnt gonna go interupt them n be like 'yeah mark by the way i really like you, lets get it on' - not that i wudda said it like that anyway! for him to be like 'nah i dnt really like you, johnny's a big liar!')
so anyways this was kinda at the end of the night, so it was ok for me to be down! i was being kinda sulky & me, emz n john left to find koisty n linzi. danny's was bloody shut!!! so no chips 'n' cheese for us munchers (spose thats a good thing in a crazy sense of the word)! stephen at one point (i think around this time) told me he was talkin to mark & mark said he had a girlfriend from his work. but then i was like "well why would johnny tell me to go for it, if mark has a gf?" stephen did point out tho that maybe mark thot STEPHEN wanted to know, so maybe mark jst said that coz he's not gay! (i hope) lol so at this point i just wanted to go home n be a big girl n moan to myself about stuff, n coz i was drunk, have a good wee cry too! so thats exactly what i did after jumpin in a taxi with natz & some random, who was actually a really good guy.
oh oh & & when i was in da taxi i just looked out to see people leaving the shed & saw mark totally looking over at our taxi (but then again he cudaa just been looking over at people gettin in taxis)! lol
so at home i cried & wondered why people have to mess about with each others feelings. whats the point? you WILL go to hell for it! i mean if he does like me, ok he's suposedly shy, but if he does he knows i totally like him & shouldnt be scared to say anythin. i mean i make it blatantly obvious a lot of the time! lol
auch anyways am better sober than i am drunk, so spose at least a quarter of the time al be ok! lol
anyways got to go. me mam's giving me the low down on the reunion she's organised for tonight. she used to go to shawlands too. its a 40 year reunion!!!! how old are they! lol
love use!
me x
so last night ian's bday night out in the shed (although hardly saw ian)! everyone was there, natz came down to mine, we picked linz & koist up n headed to johns. of course emz was there, as well as pete, then holz & then fi. missed anyone? then to the shed after loadsa drinking. me n koisty are loved, got 2 fat frogs with a shot of vodka each for £5.40 coz the guy serving is leaving & was like "fuck it am leaving anyways"! yaaaaaasssss! then me & the girlies stared at the hot new bouncer for aaaaagggeeeeeeesssss! lol & danced some, told some random my joke, but totally fucked it up so he thot i was silly! lol met johnny n mark, also stephen & alex & linzoy kerr, love that girl, you should come out with us more woman! holz got EXTREAMLY drunk, jumped on koisty & they both decked it...ON MY FOOT!!! fuckin killin me, so holz got chucked out! silly girl! had lotsa fun, was loving it. then came the drama (after a reeeeeeeaaaaallly good night tho, dont get me wrong didnt ruin anythin at all)...
Basically... (WARNING - I AM ABOUT TO RABBIT ON ABOUT BOYS...WELL ONE INPARTICULAR)!
So i kinda like mark (wako jako's pal). we just get on really well & could talk forever & never get bored. At first (& still i supose) it was just a total crush thing. But he totally started it! (although he says i did - DID SOOOOO NOT MATE)! putting your hand on someones bum whilst talkin & taking their hand goin up stairs is so starting something, not just kiddy on flirting like i was doin. actions speak louder than words! anyways so kinda had a wee thing for him for a wee while now.
to cut a potentially long story short. koist was talkin 2 him & he said he liked me, but he's just scared of the age gap (apparently he's nearly 2 years younger)! shockin i no! but it's not even like that for me, i mean i would not say no! lol but i dont want to just grab him n do all kinds of things to him like i do the new bouncer at da shed! lol (oh oh his name is james)!
aaaannnnnnneeeeeeeeeeways, i just like spendin time wit him, ya no? so i was talkin 2 johnny last night n he was like "he does like you"..."aye, so thats why he's not talked to me all night" (i have to admit i wasnt tryin very hard to talk to him either, so cant totally blame that on him)!..."he does, he's just shy. u have to make the 1st move"...."no way, im not putting myself out there, to get shot down"
(all this time mark was dancing with some other girl, no where near us - dunno if it was like that, but i wasnt gonna go interupt them n be like 'yeah mark by the way i really like you, lets get it on' - not that i wudda said it like that anyway! for him to be like 'nah i dnt really like you, johnny's a big liar!')
so anyways this was kinda at the end of the night, so it was ok for me to be down! i was being kinda sulky & me, emz n john left to find koisty n linzi. danny's was bloody shut!!! so no chips 'n' cheese for us munchers (spose thats a good thing in a crazy sense of the word)! stephen at one point (i think around this time) told me he was talkin to mark & mark said he had a girlfriend from his work. but then i was like "well why would johnny tell me to go for it, if mark has a gf?" stephen did point out tho that maybe mark thot STEPHEN wanted to know, so maybe mark jst said that coz he's not gay! (i hope) lol so at this point i just wanted to go home n be a big girl n moan to myself about stuff, n coz i was drunk, have a good wee cry too! so thats exactly what i did after jumpin in a taxi with natz & some random, who was actually a really good guy.
oh oh & & when i was in da taxi i just looked out to see people leaving the shed & saw mark totally looking over at our taxi (but then again he cudaa just been looking over at people gettin in taxis)! lol
so at home i cried & wondered why people have to mess about with each others feelings. whats the point? you WILL go to hell for it! i mean if he does like me, ok he's suposedly shy, but if he does he knows i totally like him & shouldnt be scared to say anythin. i mean i make it blatantly obvious a lot of the time! lol
auch anyways am better sober than i am drunk, so spose at least a quarter of the time al be ok! lol
anyways got to go. me mam's giving me the low down on the reunion she's organised for tonight. she used to go to shawlands too. its a 40 year reunion!!!! how old are they! lol
love use!
me x