Holiday Fic, Day 16: Love Letter for browneyesparker
Title: Love Letter
Author:
miss_peg
Rating: PG
Summary: Jane writes Lisbon a letter...
Notes: Another holiday fic! A reminder that whilst many people did them in December I had lots going on (and quite frankly it was a good idea not to do it then as I was highly unmotivated) so I'm doing it in January along with
tromana.
Today's story is for browneyesparker about the Jane and Lisbon from The Mentalist. I seem to really struggle writing these two.
Dear Lisbon,
It’s been two days, four hours and seventeen minutes since I shot Red John.
I don’t know if you’re up to reading anything, let alone a letter from me, but it’s so suffocating in jail. I need to see you and though I can’t, writing as though I’m talking to you is the only thing I can do to keep me sane.
In all of the years that I’ve known you I never expected things to end up this way. I know I always intended to kill Red John and that isn’t something that would have changed. What I didn’t expect was the feeling of loss.
The loss of you.
When Red John killed my family he killed a part of me, a part of me that I struggled to regain until I came into your life.
I know the situation is infinitely more complicated, what with me being in jail. But I hope you know that I care deeply for you.
The worst thing about being in jail is the silence. You know how much I hate silence. When I choose to be quiet and not have anything on in the background for distraction then it’s okay. When silence is thrust upon me water at a wet t-shirt contest, I hate it.
I hate it so much and all I want to do is see you. Touch you face. I’ve forgotten what you smell like. And I know this letter will probably freak you out, but I needed to tell you exactly how I felt before it was too late.
I love you Teresa and I always will.
Sincerely,
Jane.
P.S. When you come, please bring a blueberry muffin, oh and a chocolate bar. The food in this place is terrible and I’ve been having a hankering for chocolate ever since I arrived.