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I have long been obsessed with the idea that it may be possible to complete an exam or essay with a perfect sentence, which would immediately obtain full marks. This, however, is merely the tip of the iceberg in terms of my fantasy. What if you could revolutionize the world in a few words? I often ponder about if there is any basis to this but have denied myself the pleasure that believing it is possible would give me.
So, yesterday I nearly, literally, started crying with joy because it's been done! I honestly felt as though everything that I have ever wanted to happen has. Oh lordy! On 15th January 1934 'Physical Review' published a one paragraph abstract written by Fritz Zwicky and Walter Baade which was completely new, introducing science to supernovae and neutron stars, how they are formed, correct calculations on their explosive scale and power and their connection to previously unexplainable cosmic rays. It has been described as 'one of the most prescient documents in the history of physics and astronomy', their ideas, this one paragraph, truely revolutionized our understanding of the universe. I cannot overstate how important this is to me. If I hadn't given myself enough time to calm down (a day) I think I would still be shaking.
It's hard to follow that kind of elation and I'm sure that reading my burble no one would understand how profound an experience realising this was, but I have wanted it to be true for so long! The only down side to this is something which could have formed the basis of some kind of belief has now gone. Irrefutable proof removes the need for faith. For me this is comparable to a catholic being visited by the Virgin Mary who promptly opens her legs and displays her intact hymen, which somehow survived childbirth or Dan Brown digging up the holy grail in his back garden while planting potatoes.
Even today my buoyant mood has continued. I went to look for a coffee filter after my final Spanish class, so that my room at uni can smell like the history workroom at college. Suddenly I realised that I was surrounded by toasters and and kettles and smoothie makers and it was all so shiny and amazing and I thought, 'God! I really love kitchen gadgets.' And I really do, I really really do.
Facts
1. I really love kitchen gadgets
2. If I get the seven in maths I need for my Oxford offer I could have done maths at uni, which I think, secretly, is what I have always wanted to do
3. I am finding it hard to find communities that I feel comfortable in joining
So, yesterday I nearly, literally, started crying with joy because it's been done! I honestly felt as though everything that I have ever wanted to happen has. Oh lordy! On 15th January 1934 'Physical Review' published a one paragraph abstract written by Fritz Zwicky and Walter Baade which was completely new, introducing science to supernovae and neutron stars, how they are formed, correct calculations on their explosive scale and power and their connection to previously unexplainable cosmic rays. It has been described as 'one of the most prescient documents in the history of physics and astronomy', their ideas, this one paragraph, truely revolutionized our understanding of the universe. I cannot overstate how important this is to me. If I hadn't given myself enough time to calm down (a day) I think I would still be shaking.
It's hard to follow that kind of elation and I'm sure that reading my burble no one would understand how profound an experience realising this was, but I have wanted it to be true for so long! The only down side to this is something which could have formed the basis of some kind of belief has now gone. Irrefutable proof removes the need for faith. For me this is comparable to a catholic being visited by the Virgin Mary who promptly opens her legs and displays her intact hymen, which somehow survived childbirth or Dan Brown digging up the holy grail in his back garden while planting potatoes.
Even today my buoyant mood has continued. I went to look for a coffee filter after my final Spanish class, so that my room at uni can smell like the history workroom at college. Suddenly I realised that I was surrounded by toasters and and kettles and smoothie makers and it was all so shiny and amazing and I thought, 'God! I really love kitchen gadgets.' And I really do, I really really do.
Facts
1. I really love kitchen gadgets
2. If I get the seven in maths I need for my Oxford offer I could have done maths at uni, which I think, secretly, is what I have always wanted to do
3. I am finding it hard to find communities that I feel comfortable in joining