i guess time can heal some wounds...
hey there,
I know I've been MIA lately: SORRY....we move on...
for any of you that dont' know:
as of MAy 16th i hav ebeen living in Lyman, MAINE with my Dad and stepmom, Estelle. I hav ebeen here recouping after a car accident that left my car totalled and my left wrist inflamed with chronic arthritits for the rest of my life. On the positive side, I have been taking a break from the hectic life of a twentysomething struggling ot survive and reach her dreams. in the process I've hit a turning point.
Who knew when I talked to Russell in March so many things would begin to chift and change in my life. I told him I was ready for a new chapter. Ready to find closure many areas and relationships in my life and ready to meet my future head on, wherever/whatever that may be. I told him I wasn't putting any restrictions on where I ended up or what it asked of me. I was ready to get on with life. Three days later my grandfather passed away.
From the moment of his death I have felt a positive energy pushing forward as if paddles of a boat were slowly gaining speed. Even when the car hit me in April I didnt' feel angry or scared. I had some weird feeling that all was happenign for a purpose. You dont' get T-boned in your driver's side door, totalling your car and be able to walk away unless there was something greater out there.
Since coming to live with Dad we've begunt o observe each other and recently start to "talk." Now dont' get me wrong, no major LIFETIME movie moments are happening, but we are finding a common groudn as adults to build from. I venture to say we are friends. He even drove me down to Boston on Father's Day to look at apts. Since then I have finalized a deal to move in August 1st to a great 3BR apt, just a 10 minute walk from school.
What is important now is to say thank you to all of you back in KY who were there for me as I ws trying to sort all this shti out then. IF it hadn't of been for ALL the experiences there I'm not sure I could have been able to equally talk and listen to Dad now. I initially came to Maine to heal my body and in doing so I am also healing old emotional wounds from childhood as well. I am looking forward to what the unknown future has in store. I have hit that point where I am ready to fly with purpose and a sense of my own identity. I am finally coming into my own and I am thrilled about it.
Just thought you might like to know...
On top of that I am thrilled for Jamie and her acceptance into U of P, to Justin for having the courage to explore the shit that bogs him down, and to eachfo you for staying in touch. I beleive that when our world shakes, it is our friends that bring back stability. I love you and and miss the old Dinner and a movie nights. Anyone can feel free to call me during the mornings here at two seven zero two four seven two seven five zero.
I know I've been MIA lately: SORRY....we move on...
for any of you that dont' know:
as of MAy 16th i hav ebeen living in Lyman, MAINE with my Dad and stepmom, Estelle. I hav ebeen here recouping after a car accident that left my car totalled and my left wrist inflamed with chronic arthritits for the rest of my life. On the positive side, I have been taking a break from the hectic life of a twentysomething struggling ot survive and reach her dreams. in the process I've hit a turning point.
Who knew when I talked to Russell in March so many things would begin to chift and change in my life. I told him I was ready for a new chapter. Ready to find closure many areas and relationships in my life and ready to meet my future head on, wherever/whatever that may be. I told him I wasn't putting any restrictions on where I ended up or what it asked of me. I was ready to get on with life. Three days later my grandfather passed away.
From the moment of his death I have felt a positive energy pushing forward as if paddles of a boat were slowly gaining speed. Even when the car hit me in April I didnt' feel angry or scared. I had some weird feeling that all was happenign for a purpose. You dont' get T-boned in your driver's side door, totalling your car and be able to walk away unless there was something greater out there.
Since coming to live with Dad we've begunt o observe each other and recently start to "talk." Now dont' get me wrong, no major LIFETIME movie moments are happening, but we are finding a common groudn as adults to build from. I venture to say we are friends. He even drove me down to Boston on Father's Day to look at apts. Since then I have finalized a deal to move in August 1st to a great 3BR apt, just a 10 minute walk from school.
What is important now is to say thank you to all of you back in KY who were there for me as I ws trying to sort all this shti out then. IF it hadn't of been for ALL the experiences there I'm not sure I could have been able to equally talk and listen to Dad now. I initially came to Maine to heal my body and in doing so I am also healing old emotional wounds from childhood as well. I am looking forward to what the unknown future has in store. I have hit that point where I am ready to fly with purpose and a sense of my own identity. I am finally coming into my own and I am thrilled about it.
Just thought you might like to know...
On top of that I am thrilled for Jamie and her acceptance into U of P, to Justin for having the courage to explore the shit that bogs him down, and to eachfo you for staying in touch. I beleive that when our world shakes, it is our friends that bring back stability. I love you and and miss the old Dinner and a movie nights. Anyone can feel free to call me during the mornings here at two seven zero two four seven two seven five zero.