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Despite today was sposed to be one of the best days of the week it turned out to be the worst.
Lately i have been doing pretty well with my anxiety/ depression/ sensitivity but today those walls broke down around me.
Ill start from the beginning.
Yesterday I was excited as I punched in my details on the net to purchase an online booking ticket to see the first screening of Harry potter and the order of the pheonix. I got it printed. carefully cut it out and folded it nicely into my wallet so i wouldnt forget it.
Last night i went to bed extra early and set my alarm and lay out my clothes i was going to wear in the morning.
Because of my friends having a no-response to my txts i had to go see it alone. but that was fine. i have done it before.
I got up and got ready. smiling ear to ear getting tingles. Harry potter has been a big deal in my life. I was even nick-named by the cool kids at one of my schools as the 'harry potter girl' which didnt phase me. It was an addiction and obsession. Ive even met the actor who played seamus finnagin in the movies. and saw the first movie Harry potter and the philosophers stone 11 times at the cinemas..
okay enough rambling.
I got to the cinemas 30 mins early. boy was it packed. i saw people dressed as wizards and witches everywhere. Seeing as i had a special internet booking ticket i got to go into a shorter line. i waited anxiously.
A young girl served me, i handed over my ticket and asked her if i could please have a rasberry frozen coke. she typed some stuff into the computer and walked away to get it. She came back and i handed over the money for the drink and she said 'is that all' i said yes. She stood there staring at me. I stared back.
"Umm.. you didnt give me my ticket sorry" i said in the most politeful (i know its not a word) way.
Well then there was the back and forward argument 'yes i did' ... 'no you didnt'
i started to doubt my memory at this point. i checked my wallet.. my pockets.. the floor.. the counter... she just stood there in annoyance. I was starting to think 'gee.. this always fucking happens to me' ... 'why me'
She went and got her supervisor. This young guy. He checked the computer and then checked the ticket dispenser under the counter. he said "she said she gave it to you. maybe someone took it off the counter. have you been here the whole time?"
"yes, i havnt left"
"is it on the floor?"
i checked again "no. look i swear she didnt hand me the ticket. im an honest person'
"can you check your pockets please"
i pulled out my pockets "you can search me and my bag, i honestly didnt get that ticket"
he looked frustrated. there was heaps of other customers waiting. i wanted to just cry.
"well im sorry but that cinema is full now and we cant issue any more tickets"
"but i paid for it online especially. i swear i dont have it."
He grumbled and went away for a little while. He came back without an apology
"well your just going to have to take this baby ticket" he handed me a ticket saying 'underage $0.00'
after all that i didnt feel like seeing the movie anymore. i felt like i was doing somthing wrong. like the whole world was against me. like i was going to hell.. like i was a bad person.. like my memory was playing tricks on me. like they were now bitching about me behind my back.
i lined up in the endless swarm of people. there were only seats left in the front two rows. needless to say the movie was blurry and my neck was craned.
i never thought anything to do with harry potter would ever make me this upset.
after the movie i wanted to go ask if they found the ticket yet. i was to afraid i would get scorned again.
I went straight to the toy section to find a soft teddy to cuddle up to.. they were to expensive. i just wanted to go home. but i didnt want to be alone.
i walked the 5ks to the hospital (my sister was in there coz of having scans for the baby) the walk did me good i think.
well i have a huge headache right now. i cant tell if its from that situation with the ticket or from sitting to close to the cinema screen. Im thinking i will go see it again with my friend rosie tomorrow. i think i need to watch it on a positive note. or ill have a grudge against the 5th movie.
signing off.
Harry Potter Girl ♥
Lately i have been doing pretty well with my anxiety/ depression/ sensitivity but today those walls broke down around me.
Ill start from the beginning.
Yesterday I was excited as I punched in my details on the net to purchase an online booking ticket to see the first screening of Harry potter and the order of the pheonix. I got it printed. carefully cut it out and folded it nicely into my wallet so i wouldnt forget it.
Last night i went to bed extra early and set my alarm and lay out my clothes i was going to wear in the morning.
Because of my friends having a no-response to my txts i had to go see it alone. but that was fine. i have done it before.
I got up and got ready. smiling ear to ear getting tingles. Harry potter has been a big deal in my life. I was even nick-named by the cool kids at one of my schools as the 'harry potter girl' which didnt phase me. It was an addiction and obsession. Ive even met the actor who played seamus finnagin in the movies. and saw the first movie Harry potter and the philosophers stone 11 times at the cinemas..
okay enough rambling.
I got to the cinemas 30 mins early. boy was it packed. i saw people dressed as wizards and witches everywhere. Seeing as i had a special internet booking ticket i got to go into a shorter line. i waited anxiously.
A young girl served me, i handed over my ticket and asked her if i could please have a rasberry frozen coke. she typed some stuff into the computer and walked away to get it. She came back and i handed over the money for the drink and she said 'is that all' i said yes. She stood there staring at me. I stared back.
"Umm.. you didnt give me my ticket sorry" i said in the most politeful (i know its not a word) way.
Well then there was the back and forward argument 'yes i did' ... 'no you didnt'
i started to doubt my memory at this point. i checked my wallet.. my pockets.. the floor.. the counter... she just stood there in annoyance. I was starting to think 'gee.. this always fucking happens to me' ... 'why me'
She went and got her supervisor. This young guy. He checked the computer and then checked the ticket dispenser under the counter. he said "she said she gave it to you. maybe someone took it off the counter. have you been here the whole time?"
"yes, i havnt left"
"is it on the floor?"
i checked again "no. look i swear she didnt hand me the ticket. im an honest person'
"can you check your pockets please"
i pulled out my pockets "you can search me and my bag, i honestly didnt get that ticket"
he looked frustrated. there was heaps of other customers waiting. i wanted to just cry.
"well im sorry but that cinema is full now and we cant issue any more tickets"
"but i paid for it online especially. i swear i dont have it."
He grumbled and went away for a little while. He came back without an apology
"well your just going to have to take this baby ticket" he handed me a ticket saying 'underage $0.00'
after all that i didnt feel like seeing the movie anymore. i felt like i was doing somthing wrong. like the whole world was against me. like i was going to hell.. like i was a bad person.. like my memory was playing tricks on me. like they were now bitching about me behind my back.
i lined up in the endless swarm of people. there were only seats left in the front two rows. needless to say the movie was blurry and my neck was craned.
i never thought anything to do with harry potter would ever make me this upset.
after the movie i wanted to go ask if they found the ticket yet. i was to afraid i would get scorned again.
I went straight to the toy section to find a soft teddy to cuddle up to.. they were to expensive. i just wanted to go home. but i didnt want to be alone.
i walked the 5ks to the hospital (my sister was in there coz of having scans for the baby) the walk did me good i think.
well i have a huge headache right now. i cant tell if its from that situation with the ticket or from sitting to close to the cinema screen. Im thinking i will go see it again with my friend rosie tomorrow. i think i need to watch it on a positive note. or ill have a grudge against the 5th movie.
signing off.
Harry Potter Girl ♥