And this is my life...

[miss_mouth]

I really feel like I'm stuck. When I'm not at work I'm as happy as can be. But, once I step into Winn-Dixie, I'm the un-happiest person in the world. I really hate my job. I think I might stay long enough to get trained as a cashier and then find another job (hopefully at a clothing store in the mall). But, that'll be just a temporary fix. I still have no idea what I wanna do with my life. Sometimes I wish we could win the lottery so I could be a housewife and not have to worry about my future. I wish I had a time machine so I could go back to school and fix all the mistakes I made. But, I don't and I need to do something now to change my bleak future. Unfortunately, I hear the voice in the back of my head saying, "You were a failure then, you're a failure now, and you'll be a failure forever.". That's only when I think about going back to school. When I think about doing the whole modeling thing I remember all the dirty and disgusted looks from all the pretty girls from school. I know I sound like a broken record. But really, it's like there is a broken record of self-hate playing in my head at all times. It's just sometimes I need to vent.

Ok, vent/rant over. I'll try to update something more cheerful next time. Ta!