An Interesting Series of Events
So, I'm pretty sure that I hit my all-time low last night. I wanted to call my mom, try to tell her how I felt about what she said. So the result was her saying, "You have no idea how perfect your life is, do you? You have a great job, a cute apartment, an education, a horse, etc. You have no right to complain" At that point I completely lost it. I kept saying I'm not going to take this, we need to hang up right now. Then she would say how I hurt her, and she couldn't handle for me to be acting that way, that she needed me to be stronger than that. Yadda yadda. She kept going until I found myself sobbing uncontrollably in the middle of the night, with nobody to talk to.
This morning she calls to tell me that she is sorry. That her husband made her realize she was being too hard on me when I am going through a rough time. That she will support me if I need to see a doctor. Oh mom's. Oh and that Ann (the woman I am buying a horse from) invited me to spend the day with her at the farm. That was good enough news for me, I drove down to Haverhill, Mass and had the most amazing day I have had in a long, long time.
I spent a lot of time making Jingles prettyfied. I saddled him up. She decided she would go get her horse so we could go out on the trails, since I didn't know my way around. We ended up going out and finding the most open and beautiful field I have ever seen. I felt such freedom just running through the fields for seemed like hours. I didn't remember my feelings or troubles, not even once. This is how I know having a horse is going to be an amazing experience. After we brought the horses back to the barn, I asked if I could take a few pictures for photography class. As it turns out she is really into photography and was planning on spending the afternoon taking pictures. So we spent another hour or so walking around taking photos. Amazing.
This morning she calls to tell me that she is sorry. That her husband made her realize she was being too hard on me when I am going through a rough time. That she will support me if I need to see a doctor. Oh mom's. Oh and that Ann (the woman I am buying a horse from) invited me to spend the day with her at the farm. That was good enough news for me, I drove down to Haverhill, Mass and had the most amazing day I have had in a long, long time.
I spent a lot of time making Jingles prettyfied. I saddled him up. She decided she would go get her horse so we could go out on the trails, since I didn't know my way around. We ended up going out and finding the most open and beautiful field I have ever seen. I felt such freedom just running through the fields for seemed like hours. I didn't remember my feelings or troubles, not even once. This is how I know having a horse is going to be an amazing experience. After we brought the horses back to the barn, I asked if I could take a few pictures for photography class. As it turns out she is really into photography and was planning on spending the afternoon taking pictures. So we spent another hour or so walking around taking photos. Amazing.