rest stop
well last night i found out my best friend will be moving outta NJ to live in Indiana...
it came as a big big shock- for i had no warning.... finding out was really kinda surreal for me- because you just kinda take for granted that some people will always be there...
i was so happy to find her in the first place... it was too unreal for me to find a girl as special as she... i could just never get over her greatness... i just wanted to eat her up the moment we met.
there have been very few people on this earth that i have been able to truly relate to- and she is one of them. i'm only feeling her loss so great because it will be most impossible to fill the hole she will leave.
i told everyone at work today that matt and kellee are moving- and they all got very quite and looked very scared... they were all like- "no- not kellee...?" and i stood there and said 'yeah- kellee'..
but deep inside- i know how right this move will be for them. so i have such mixed feelings. all i can do is picture her so happy in a beautiful enormous house- in the beautiful country side... and i can just picture the joy of her marriage when matt is happy with his work- and they are fulfilling their dreams together... because that is what it's all really about. NJ was just a rest stop for them..
so i look forward to their joy- and will try and deal appropriately with my sorrow.
i love you Kel.
it came as a big big shock- for i had no warning.... finding out was really kinda surreal for me- because you just kinda take for granted that some people will always be there...
i was so happy to find her in the first place... it was too unreal for me to find a girl as special as she... i could just never get over her greatness... i just wanted to eat her up the moment we met.
there have been very few people on this earth that i have been able to truly relate to- and she is one of them. i'm only feeling her loss so great because it will be most impossible to fill the hole she will leave.
i told everyone at work today that matt and kellee are moving- and they all got very quite and looked very scared... they were all like- "no- not kellee...?" and i stood there and said 'yeah- kellee'..
but deep inside- i know how right this move will be for them. so i have such mixed feelings. all i can do is picture her so happy in a beautiful enormous house- in the beautiful country side... and i can just picture the joy of her marriage when matt is happy with his work- and they are fulfilling their dreams together... because that is what it's all really about. NJ was just a rest stop for them..
so i look forward to their joy- and will try and deal appropriately with my sorrow.
i love you Kel.