Oh just a little blood with my heart please

[miss_molly_sue]

I dont know what to do anymore. I love Kalvin. I do. I want us to be happy and to get along. But, I'm not sure anymore if it'll happen. I can try to watch my temper and just let things roll off my back...But I feel like I'm the only one that is. Kalvin can get mad at me and not talk to me for what seems like forever. He doesn't really seem to be bothered when we're fighting. He doesn't seem to care that we're in different rooms, not speaking. He repeatedly says things or does things that he knows upsets me. He does them and doesn't understand why I get pissed off. I'm tired of it. I want to go back to us being happy and in love. I want things to go back to the way they used to be.

I dont know if it's because we live together now and we're still trying to get to know one another, or what. I'm not sure what it is. But I do know that when he's here, I'm not happy. When he's NOT here, I'm not happy. Either he's here and he's making me cry...Or he's not here and making me cry.

I'm praying that we'll make it through this because I dont want to have to say good bye...