Sick and tired.. but still happy ^^
Hehe, hi guys <)
I was doing homeworks and i tryied to study, but in the end, I ended here, writing this :D I don't know.. I just feel better, when I write pointless things on "paper" :D
Ummm.. I'm really tired from school :( I just got on high school and I love it there, but still.. It's so tiring! :D And I cought a cold, my head still hurts like hell.. But! I'm still happy :)
Today, after 3 months, i saw my "ex" boyfriend. We were together about.. 3 months? He was my first boyfriend actually :D But after those 3 months, i broke up with him.. I really liked him but more like brother, not like a boyfriend.. And i knew it'll end up soon or later, and i didn't want to hurt him. But still, i hurt him.. And i'll never forgive myself for that :(
After we broke up, i didn't see him few weeks.. But after those few weeks, we started to talk again, and we became really good friends :) It made me so happy :) But still.. I saw it everytime we were together.. He didn't want to be just my "friend". And one day (it's a long story..), we fought because of something i don't even remember.. He was jealous, because one of his friends "flirted" with me i think.. I don't know, but we just fought and in the end, he said he still likes me.. We didn't talk to each other about a month after that..
But one day, he wrote me a massenge, and he apologized.. I was angry at him, he said so many things that really hurt me.. Next day, he wrote me a long email, and i forgived him. We started to talk again.
But it didn't end yet. It was end of primary school, we had an endind performance on our "school festival" or something like that, and we were all crying, sad that we will all have to be at different schools from now and things like that.. And he was there too, and when i was crying, i went and hugged him. I didn't know what can stupid hug do..
Next day, we fought again.. I don't remember how it started. In the end, he said that I'm a bitch, which doesn't know, what she wants. Gosh, I was so angry at him!! I know, that i hurt him, and I'm still regreting that, but it doesn't mean he has to act like jerk.. He said really.. horrible things to me.
And so.. we didn't talk for 3 months. And today, I saw him again.. And it was like nothing happend. I'm not angry at him anymore. I like him too much for that. He's really like a brother to me :) And then, he went home with my mum because mum went somewhere, and they had to go the same way. And mum said, that he said to her, that he know he acted like idiot and that he's glad i forgived him :)
I'm really happy, that it ended like this :) I hope we won't fight again.. :)
Gosh.. I should go to sleep, now :D I have to wake up at 5:30 AM T-T Okay, I'm going to sleep ;D
Bye <3
I was doing homeworks and i tryied to study, but in the end, I ended here, writing this :D I don't know.. I just feel better, when I write pointless things on "paper" :D
Ummm.. I'm really tired from school :( I just got on high school and I love it there, but still.. It's so tiring! :D And I cought a cold, my head still hurts like hell.. But! I'm still happy :)
Today, after 3 months, i saw my "ex" boyfriend. We were together about.. 3 months? He was my first boyfriend actually :D But after those 3 months, i broke up with him.. I really liked him but more like brother, not like a boyfriend.. And i knew it'll end up soon or later, and i didn't want to hurt him. But still, i hurt him.. And i'll never forgive myself for that :(
After we broke up, i didn't see him few weeks.. But after those few weeks, we started to talk again, and we became really good friends :) It made me so happy :) But still.. I saw it everytime we were together.. He didn't want to be just my "friend". And one day (it's a long story..), we fought because of something i don't even remember.. He was jealous, because one of his friends "flirted" with me i think.. I don't know, but we just fought and in the end, he said he still likes me.. We didn't talk to each other about a month after that..
But one day, he wrote me a massenge, and he apologized.. I was angry at him, he said so many things that really hurt me.. Next day, he wrote me a long email, and i forgived him. We started to talk again.
But it didn't end yet. It was end of primary school, we had an endind performance on our "school festival" or something like that, and we were all crying, sad that we will all have to be at different schools from now and things like that.. And he was there too, and when i was crying, i went and hugged him. I didn't know what can stupid hug do..
Next day, we fought again.. I don't remember how it started. In the end, he said that I'm a bitch, which doesn't know, what she wants. Gosh, I was so angry at him!! I know, that i hurt him, and I'm still regreting that, but it doesn't mean he has to act like jerk.. He said really.. horrible things to me.
And so.. we didn't talk for 3 months. And today, I saw him again.. And it was like nothing happend. I'm not angry at him anymore. I like him too much for that. He's really like a brother to me :) And then, he went home with my mum because mum went somewhere, and they had to go the same way. And mum said, that he said to her, that he know he acted like idiot and that he's glad i forgived him :)
I'm really happy, that it ended like this :) I hope we won't fight again.. :)
Gosh.. I should go to sleep, now :D I have to wake up at 5:30 AM T-T Okay, I'm going to sleep ;D
Bye <3