well..
i dont really feel like writing, i just have so many thoughts and feelings running through me right now..
i had my interview and review...
i got some good comments in my review, i was reviewed well a level higher then what i technically should be, so that was good...
N put some really nice comments at the end, iw ill get a copy of it too.
She also said how im ver intellegent young woman, that she thinks i will do well in any business and that i put myself in...
she also said sorry for the last 6 months as she blames hersel ffor putting me there..but well i said its not her fault. which it isnt, she didnt make B do any of that...she supported me.yes its been hard but i came through it, and well i did some things for the busines that havent gone unoticed..
they asked me which store, i suppose i should have said. but i guess not that i have admitted htis but through the interview and chat i kidna started thinking about it... do i really want to have the store im at? after all the s*it they have given me?!
i mean i want it cause its a big store and well then k cant have it..but well i ove the busyness of it.. but if i went back to myold store as manager i could do well there.. but then well you live life once and that was what i applied for... i know n thinks i should go to the old store...
anyway i smsed her this morning answering the Q of it...
anyway i have a feeling its all in the bag, the old mamanerg who i dont get along with will get the store im at and iw ill ger hers..i dunno....maybe maybe not, or perhaps an external and iw ill stay where i am!? they were going to have decided today and tell us, but well i never heard anything...i dont know if thats ag ood thing or not, maybe they are having a hard time figuring it out?
i finally spoke to my boy...hadnt talked to him for awhile...i didnt watch him umpire on tues, i eel bad but i was sick and needed that night at home... i got a postcard from his sister, well another one...he sounds good hes been busya t uni and such and is studying tonight. i really need a big hug off him...i feel like just being wrapped in his arms all tight, because its then everything feels ok.
we went out for N's farewell dinner last night, it was a good night, i took a couple of photos.
it was a bit sad...
we gave her a pressie, she liked it and i even put some toe socks in as a joke! i gave her a seperate card with some things i felt i needed to say, she got a bit teary which made me feel a bit that way too... she said some really nice things to me.
My uncle is home now which is good, he will still need some radiotheapry though..but sitll fingers crossed...
i wish i could just find out what the answer is...its funnyyesterday i wasnt nervous about the interview i was fine...but today i am all nervous, i just want to know. i guess i am scared to hope too much, and cause i want this so badly and i dont want to want it too much cause the fall down will be harder if it happens
i feel so exhausted...physcially and well mentally too i think...
i dont feel sure of anything anymore...everything is just different and changes so much...i dontknow... icant explain it... i feel, well i dont have any words on it right now..
i had my interview and review...
i got some good comments in my review, i was reviewed well a level higher then what i technically should be, so that was good...
N put some really nice comments at the end, iw ill get a copy of it too.
She also said how im ver intellegent young woman, that she thinks i will do well in any business and that i put myself in...
she also said sorry for the last 6 months as she blames hersel ffor putting me there..but well i said its not her fault. which it isnt, she didnt make B do any of that...she supported me.yes its been hard but i came through it, and well i did some things for the busines that havent gone unoticed..
they asked me which store, i suppose i should have said. but i guess not that i have admitted htis but through the interview and chat i kidna started thinking about it... do i really want to have the store im at? after all the s*it they have given me?!
i mean i want it cause its a big store and well then k cant have it..but well i ove the busyness of it.. but if i went back to myold store as manager i could do well there.. but then well you live life once and that was what i applied for... i know n thinks i should go to the old store...
anyway i smsed her this morning answering the Q of it...
anyway i have a feeling its all in the bag, the old mamanerg who i dont get along with will get the store im at and iw ill ger hers..i dunno....maybe maybe not, or perhaps an external and iw ill stay where i am!? they were going to have decided today and tell us, but well i never heard anything...i dont know if thats ag ood thing or not, maybe they are having a hard time figuring it out?
i finally spoke to my boy...hadnt talked to him for awhile...i didnt watch him umpire on tues, i eel bad but i was sick and needed that night at home... i got a postcard from his sister, well another one...he sounds good hes been busya t uni and such and is studying tonight. i really need a big hug off him...i feel like just being wrapped in his arms all tight, because its then everything feels ok.
we went out for N's farewell dinner last night, it was a good night, i took a couple of photos.
it was a bit sad...
we gave her a pressie, she liked it and i even put some toe socks in as a joke! i gave her a seperate card with some things i felt i needed to say, she got a bit teary which made me feel a bit that way too... she said some really nice things to me.
My uncle is home now which is good, he will still need some radiotheapry though..but sitll fingers crossed...
i wish i could just find out what the answer is...its funnyyesterday i wasnt nervous about the interview i was fine...but today i am all nervous, i just want to know. i guess i am scared to hope too much, and cause i want this so badly and i dont want to want it too much cause the fall down will be harder if it happens
i feel so exhausted...physcially and well mentally too i think...
i dont feel sure of anything anymore...everything is just different and changes so much...i dontknow... icant explain it... i feel, well i dont have any words on it right now..