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this must break the record for quickest mood swing in history.
i just found out that i'm going to be sharing my awesome nine inch nails experience with someone i really do not want to be there.
why can't i stop finding things out about this person, this person who makes me sick and makes me cry and who doesn't even know i exist? every little voice in my head is telling me to LET IT GO. except for that really convincing one which tells me to keep going and keep making myself upset, when the one person who can help me get over this is kilometres away at work?
i can't stand doing this to myself anymore.
i have to get over this.
i have to believe the person who tells me i have nothing to worry about.
can't say anything more because i don't want you to know how i found this out, or who i'm talking about, you'll think i'm weird.
but why fucking nine inch nails?
if anything happens, i'm going backstage no matter how, i want to have that conversation with Trent Reznor i had in my dream, except it may end differently.
fuck this.
i just found out that i'm going to be sharing my awesome nine inch nails experience with someone i really do not want to be there.
why can't i stop finding things out about this person, this person who makes me sick and makes me cry and who doesn't even know i exist? every little voice in my head is telling me to LET IT GO. except for that really convincing one which tells me to keep going and keep making myself upset, when the one person who can help me get over this is kilometres away at work?
i can't stand doing this to myself anymore.
i have to get over this.
i have to believe the person who tells me i have nothing to worry about.
can't say anything more because i don't want you to know how i found this out, or who i'm talking about, you'll think i'm weird.
but why fucking nine inch nails?
if anything happens, i'm going backstage no matter how, i want to have that conversation with Trent Reznor i had in my dream, except it may end differently.
fuck this.