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[miss_june]

i feel very unsettled this evening

i have no money
pooo

i miss my kitten ALOT!
i know i hurt aidy and he's not been a well man but i do think its like courtesy to at lea\st let my mum know how he and sam are!!!

i was feeling really shakey and stuff earlier so i climbed into bed and rob played nurse. i guess it's been a rough couple of months really, well its coming up a year ago all that stuff happened at my old work and i havent really had a smooth run ever since.

i like my job. i have the best boss. im doing well but its so far to travel from rob's and i dont have enough hours and i dont get a great amount of pay
blergh!

we're still going ahead with the business. bank account nearly set up, stuff for loan is getting there.
i want to have it now

i want to feel like a success
i want people to feel proud of me
i want to have the life ive always dreamt of with rob

rob is the sweetest and most caring boyfriend. he does these little things that makes me blush 
for example...
he took a pic of me asleep and now its his phone background
when he was stoned the other day he started talking about mortgages, i said "whoa, thats like more of a commitment that an engagement!" to that he replied "its not a matter of if i pop the question, its when..."

and still i feel really sad
im a weirdo