baby babble - trying to keep the ol' chin up
so I thought I was feeling pretty level-headed about all this baby stuff. but then I sat down and started thinking about it again and I fear I've worked myself into another tizzy.
I'm trying so hard to not get in a rut about my body. it's so frustrating when one year ago I was at the thinnest I have ever been in my entire life. I just want my bump already so I don't have to ask myself and ten other people if I look fat or pregnant before going outside. I just can't help but think when I go out people are staring at me thinking "look at that heffer." :<
but weird body issues aside I'm thinking about cribs... co-sleepers, co-sleeping (which I want to do so badly but I think the cat will become an issue here) bassinets, bouncers toys clothes cloth diapers cloth diaper services? we don't have a washer and dryer, would we be damn fools to even consider it? breast pumps, working full time, NOT working full time, moving, school, LABOR AND THE POSSIBILITY OF TEARING. I'm having lunch with a friend tomorrow, I can drill her brain on some of this stuff. or at least learn some good zen techniques to calm the fuck down.
if my bladder has anything in it I pee when I sneeze.
another major bummer... call me lame but missionary is probably my favorite/best feeling position and it's starting to put too much pressure on my belly to feel good. boo. :[ sleeping on my belly is also new on the big list of NO.
BUT! I will try to stay positive. work has been GREAT the last few days. I've been making $100+ the last few shifts and this will hopefully continue for another week or so. I know once we get back into january and febuary things are going to start hurting again. not to mention, ya know, that freak two feet of snow we got? I won't be surprised if another one comes at the end of january, that's when we usually get our big ol' nasty winter storm.
I seemed to have deterred from talking about the good.
or maybe I'll just own up to the fact that this was a big pile of bitchin'.
18 weeks today!! my belly gets huge after I eat.
well I at least think I'm cute! D:
I'm trying so hard to not get in a rut about my body. it's so frustrating when one year ago I was at the thinnest I have ever been in my entire life. I just want my bump already so I don't have to ask myself and ten other people if I look fat or pregnant before going outside. I just can't help but think when I go out people are staring at me thinking "look at that heffer." :<
but weird body issues aside I'm thinking about cribs... co-sleepers, co-sleeping (which I want to do so badly but I think the cat will become an issue here) bassinets, bouncers toys clothes cloth diapers cloth diaper services? we don't have a washer and dryer, would we be damn fools to even consider it? breast pumps, working full time, NOT working full time, moving, school, LABOR AND THE POSSIBILITY OF TEARING. I'm having lunch with a friend tomorrow, I can drill her brain on some of this stuff. or at least learn some good zen techniques to calm the fuck down.
if my bladder has anything in it I pee when I sneeze.
another major bummer... call me lame but missionary is probably my favorite/best feeling position and it's starting to put too much pressure on my belly to feel good. boo. :[ sleeping on my belly is also new on the big list of NO.
BUT! I will try to stay positive. work has been GREAT the last few days. I've been making $100+ the last few shifts and this will hopefully continue for another week or so. I know once we get back into january and febuary things are going to start hurting again. not to mention, ya know, that freak two feet of snow we got? I won't be surprised if another one comes at the end of january, that's when we usually get our big ol' nasty winter storm.
I seemed to have deterred from talking about the good.
or maybe I'll just own up to the fact that this was a big pile of bitchin'.
18 weeks today!! my belly gets huge after I eat.
well I at least think I'm cute! D: