Makeup
Okay so Emma and I made up, I guess, today... Here's how our emails went
Me: Can you stop sending me these stupid forwards? They are annoying.
(That was just me saying I didn't want forwards... what's so bad about that?)
Emma: whoops sry meggie.... i meant 2 send taht 2 all my friends and i accidentally sent 1 2 u... whoops my bad
(ouch burn...)
Me: ummm okay Emma... but bitterness really doesn't go with what you're wearing... in fact nothing much does
(It may be a little harsh... but I've always wanted to use a line from Will and Grace! IT seemed like the perfect opportunity!)
Emma: nice comeback... TOO BAD IT SUCKED!!! lol hehehe... and u say that I am the one that is immature?
(Yeah... that's goin down as the stupidest comeback I've ever heard... I'm sorry)
Me: Wow Emma... that was such a good comeback I can hardly respond! You are the one who started this stupid thing in the first place! I asked you to stop sending me forwards and you had to be all bitter about it. Don't even try to sit at the same table with me tomorrow.
(Me getting pissed)
Emma: ok dont u dare tell me where 2 sit... i can sit whereever the hell i wanna sit! and also... wut is ur problem? u just make comments 2 me every single day and one i say something back its like u cant take it when its coming @ u! uve been being a bitch 4 a while and personally im tired of being picked on and bullied and im not gonna take it anymore!
(I don't friggin bully her!)
Me: But the thing is... I don't pick on you nearly as much as you think. You can sit "wherever the hell" you want to sit... I guess... you just might not WANT to sit at my table. My problem is you are annoying and you talk about stupid things like ice cream EVERYDAY! What the hell? Why is ice cream like the center of your life? It's really sad.
(Seriously she's like "I LOVE ICE CREAM" "Omg Meggie I'm so fat" and I'm thinking THEN DON'T EAT ICE CREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
Emma: ok meggie... im sry if i annoy u... but wut u think u dont annoy me 2??? u kno other ppl dont like me other than u... and i kno that u honestly dont mean 2 pick on me... and u dont even realize that u do it... but EVERYbody always does and it just gets old... like wut if some1 told u that u were ugly every single day... well then after a while u might actually start 2 believe it... that is how i feel... and u kno when we first met (minus the 1st like week or 2 when we hated each other) u were nice... and ya u wud like make fun of me but in a playin way and i wud b able 2 tell that u were kidding and i wud kid back but slowly uve just become meaner and meaner... but u only act mean @ skewl... cuz like when we went 2 the hockey game u werent mean or when we went 2 the mall... and ok... do u wanna kno y i talk about stupid shit? b/c i dont wanna think about all the horrible shit that is goign on right now... did u ever thinkg that maybe i have A LOT of stuff goign on my life right now... yes MY LIFE... I HAVE A LIFE! and it doesnt revolve around ice cream or anything else... who i am at skewl... thats fake... but i have 2 b fake in order 2 cover my real feelings... so u kno wut if u dont like me i honestly i dont care at all... b/c w/ the way uve treated me in the last like month or 2 i really dont think that ill b missing that much if u dont wanna b my friend.
all i ask is that we dont act like 3 yr olds like pushing my chair away from the lunch table, the 'silent treatment' or stupid lil comeback like being bitter doesnt match my outfit... i think its about time that u start acting ur age... so if u dont wanna b my friend that is fine but lets at least treat each other civily... and if u wanna try and work this out that is fine 2
(Recap: My life sucks, your life is good let's makeup!)
Me: Okay, Emma you can't just assume I don't have crap in my life one of my family members tried to commit suicide and was raped okay? And I still manage to be happy without being fake. I am not immature. I didn't want you sitting next to me if you were going to be a bitch to me. So whatever... I don't care very much to be your friend because I don't want to be friends with a "fake" person. I would rather be friends with someone who is, although sad, still nice and understanding. I am sad a lot of the times with my friends but they understand... you need to realize that people can be comforting if you are having troubles. Don't just hide from everyone just because you think you have to be happy. You don't always have to be. So there is my advise... take it as you will.
(Pissed... again)
Emma: meggie... i didnt assume that u dont have crap going on in ur life... and im sry bout ur family member... i didnt kno... and i kno that every1 has crap going on in their life... and i cant help being fake... b/c i realize that when i am real... most people dont like me... and it just causes problems... when i tell people how i am feeling... or wut i am thinking... or when something they do bugs me... do u kno wut happens? i lose a friend... and then 1 by 1 my friends leave... meggie i am not saying that i dont wanna b ur friend anymore... b/c i do... and we have had fun time 2gether... all i am saying is that lately... u have been being mean and always making comments... and just not being very nice OR friendly... and it might have been b/c of stuff going on at home or something... and im sry if i didnt think about that... but like make ur life out 2 b soo pefect and squeaky clean... i dunno... i guess we both have problems in our lives and we didnt really share them w/ each other... which is fine but we were both in bad moods b/c of them and it... caused problems... and im sry... i really am...
its just that... all of first quarter i hung out w/ laura n renata and caitlin t n stuff... and they ALWAYs made fun of me and... i kno they were kidding but after a while it just began 2 hurt... so then in 2nd quarter i started hanging out w/ u n anna n katie and carol and u guys didnt make fun of me and that felt good not 2 b made fun of... u kno? so but then like in the last couple months u have started again... and im not trying 2 sound like a lil kid and be stupid... but after being constantly bithched at every day it begins 2 hurt...
so maybe if we are both a lil more sensitive of each other... then things cud work out...
and im really sry if i hurt ur feelings or anything or did anything else
(She's getting nicer)
Meg: Okay. I like you when you're real... well actually I can't say that because I don't really know the real you. I like the monkey-boy Emma. The one that I can have fun with and just goof off... everything I say to you, mostly, is a joke, so just don't take it personally. I will try to not be so "teasing" or whatever... but if I do... know that I don't mean to okay. You have hurt me... but I know that I have probably hurt you worse and for that I am truly sorry. I never like to be mean to people or have people mean to me. It doesn't make me feel good. So just my advise to you... be yourself... don't be fake. If people don't like you for who you are... it's a hell of a lot better than having friends who like you because you are something else. Trust me. Take me for example... I'm sad sometimes. But I choose my own mood. I try to be happy even when times are rough. So just tough it out and I'm here to talk. Sorry for everything... I'll be more conscious of my actions and if I make fun of you or anything. But you just have to be real... cause I'm real... the way you look they way you smell it drives me wild... wow J-Lo Flashback! Just be real... and don't be fooled by all the rocks that people may got... their still their still Jenny from the block!
(Hey I gotta throw some comic reliefe in there somewhere! Monkey boy is a hockey player that we nicknamed that... yeah... don't know what his real name is... he's from the Cleveland... umm... The Cleveland... BARONS! That's it... The Cleveland Barons!)
Emma: Hey meggie...
ok... thanks! im glad that we worked this out... yes i like the monkey-boy Meggie 2... hehehe... i dont even kno who the real me is anymore... cuz ive been faking so much stuff and covering up how i really feel for a really long time... but when i am real ppl dont like me... i dunno like carol i talk 2 her online a lot and she got mad @ me 4 when i was real... i kno i am my real self when i am w/ my friend becky... but i just feel like i can never be my complete real self... like its like im a diff person depending on who i am around... i dunno... and like my best friend xtine (not fink) she wants me 2 b just like her even if she doesnt admit it... and i was just like her 4 so long so its hard 4 me 2 b my own person... i dunno...
ya well.. thanks 4 understanding... and again i am really really sorry...
im glad that we worked this out
lots of luv
-emma!
(Recap: I hate you, I hate you too, you annoy me, you annoy me too, my life sucks, so does mine, I love you, I love you too. Tada THE END)
Okay so yeah... that's pretty much it except for JENNT MANCINI AND I MADE UP WOOHOOO! She's not pissed at me... I spent like an hour and a half on the phone with her just talking about old times... the good times... back in 3rd through 7th grade... great times. Yeah so we're good now.
Oh, and we (Anna, Stephanie, Lily, and I) made a movie about William Shakespeare's life... it sucks if you ask me... but I'll let the teachers decide. Hopefully they will be leniant... seeing it is the day before the last day of actual classes... if that made any sence. Yeah okay... well I must go and see if the Shakespeare DVD is burning. Gotta go sleep yay!
-Meggie
Me: Can you stop sending me these stupid forwards? They are annoying.
(That was just me saying I didn't want forwards... what's so bad about that?)
Emma: whoops sry meggie.... i meant 2 send taht 2 all my friends and i accidentally sent 1 2 u... whoops my bad
(ouch burn...)
Me: ummm okay Emma... but bitterness really doesn't go with what you're wearing... in fact nothing much does
(It may be a little harsh... but I've always wanted to use a line from Will and Grace! IT seemed like the perfect opportunity!)
Emma: nice comeback... TOO BAD IT SUCKED!!! lol hehehe... and u say that I am the one that is immature?
(Yeah... that's goin down as the stupidest comeback I've ever heard... I'm sorry)
Me: Wow Emma... that was such a good comeback I can hardly respond! You are the one who started this stupid thing in the first place! I asked you to stop sending me forwards and you had to be all bitter about it. Don't even try to sit at the same table with me tomorrow.
(Me getting pissed)
Emma: ok dont u dare tell me where 2 sit... i can sit whereever the hell i wanna sit! and also... wut is ur problem? u just make comments 2 me every single day and one i say something back its like u cant take it when its coming @ u! uve been being a bitch 4 a while and personally im tired of being picked on and bullied and im not gonna take it anymore!
(I don't friggin bully her!)
Me: But the thing is... I don't pick on you nearly as much as you think. You can sit "wherever the hell" you want to sit... I guess... you just might not WANT to sit at my table. My problem is you are annoying and you talk about stupid things like ice cream EVERYDAY! What the hell? Why is ice cream like the center of your life? It's really sad.
(Seriously she's like "I LOVE ICE CREAM" "Omg Meggie I'm so fat" and I'm thinking THEN DON'T EAT ICE CREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
Emma: ok meggie... im sry if i annoy u... but wut u think u dont annoy me 2??? u kno other ppl dont like me other than u... and i kno that u honestly dont mean 2 pick on me... and u dont even realize that u do it... but EVERYbody always does and it just gets old... like wut if some1 told u that u were ugly every single day... well then after a while u might actually start 2 believe it... that is how i feel... and u kno when we first met (minus the 1st like week or 2 when we hated each other) u were nice... and ya u wud like make fun of me but in a playin way and i wud b able 2 tell that u were kidding and i wud kid back but slowly uve just become meaner and meaner... but u only act mean @ skewl... cuz like when we went 2 the hockey game u werent mean or when we went 2 the mall... and ok... do u wanna kno y i talk about stupid shit? b/c i dont wanna think about all the horrible shit that is goign on right now... did u ever thinkg that maybe i have A LOT of stuff goign on my life right now... yes MY LIFE... I HAVE A LIFE! and it doesnt revolve around ice cream or anything else... who i am at skewl... thats fake... but i have 2 b fake in order 2 cover my real feelings... so u kno wut if u dont like me i honestly i dont care at all... b/c w/ the way uve treated me in the last like month or 2 i really dont think that ill b missing that much if u dont wanna b my friend.
all i ask is that we dont act like 3 yr olds like pushing my chair away from the lunch table, the 'silent treatment' or stupid lil comeback like being bitter doesnt match my outfit... i think its about time that u start acting ur age... so if u dont wanna b my friend that is fine but lets at least treat each other civily... and if u wanna try and work this out that is fine 2
(Recap: My life sucks, your life is good let's makeup!)
Me: Okay, Emma you can't just assume I don't have crap in my life one of my family members tried to commit suicide and was raped okay? And I still manage to be happy without being fake. I am not immature. I didn't want you sitting next to me if you were going to be a bitch to me. So whatever... I don't care very much to be your friend because I don't want to be friends with a "fake" person. I would rather be friends with someone who is, although sad, still nice and understanding. I am sad a lot of the times with my friends but they understand... you need to realize that people can be comforting if you are having troubles. Don't just hide from everyone just because you think you have to be happy. You don't always have to be. So there is my advise... take it as you will.
(Pissed... again)
Emma: meggie... i didnt assume that u dont have crap going on in ur life... and im sry bout ur family member... i didnt kno... and i kno that every1 has crap going on in their life... and i cant help being fake... b/c i realize that when i am real... most people dont like me... and it just causes problems... when i tell people how i am feeling... or wut i am thinking... or when something they do bugs me... do u kno wut happens? i lose a friend... and then 1 by 1 my friends leave... meggie i am not saying that i dont wanna b ur friend anymore... b/c i do... and we have had fun time 2gether... all i am saying is that lately... u have been being mean and always making comments... and just not being very nice OR friendly... and it might have been b/c of stuff going on at home or something... and im sry if i didnt think about that... but like make ur life out 2 b soo pefect and squeaky clean... i dunno... i guess we both have problems in our lives and we didnt really share them w/ each other... which is fine but we were both in bad moods b/c of them and it... caused problems... and im sry... i really am...
its just that... all of first quarter i hung out w/ laura n renata and caitlin t n stuff... and they ALWAYs made fun of me and... i kno they were kidding but after a while it just began 2 hurt... so then in 2nd quarter i started hanging out w/ u n anna n katie and carol and u guys didnt make fun of me and that felt good not 2 b made fun of... u kno? so but then like in the last couple months u have started again... and im not trying 2 sound like a lil kid and be stupid... but after being constantly bithched at every day it begins 2 hurt...
so maybe if we are both a lil more sensitive of each other... then things cud work out...
and im really sry if i hurt ur feelings or anything or did anything else
(She's getting nicer)
Meg: Okay. I like you when you're real... well actually I can't say that because I don't really know the real you. I like the monkey-boy Emma. The one that I can have fun with and just goof off... everything I say to you, mostly, is a joke, so just don't take it personally. I will try to not be so "teasing" or whatever... but if I do... know that I don't mean to okay. You have hurt me... but I know that I have probably hurt you worse and for that I am truly sorry. I never like to be mean to people or have people mean to me. It doesn't make me feel good. So just my advise to you... be yourself... don't be fake. If people don't like you for who you are... it's a hell of a lot better than having friends who like you because you are something else. Trust me. Take me for example... I'm sad sometimes. But I choose my own mood. I try to be happy even when times are rough. So just tough it out and I'm here to talk. Sorry for everything... I'll be more conscious of my actions and if I make fun of you or anything. But you just have to be real... cause I'm real... the way you look they way you smell it drives me wild... wow J-Lo Flashback! Just be real... and don't be fooled by all the rocks that people may got... their still their still Jenny from the block!
(Hey I gotta throw some comic reliefe in there somewhere! Monkey boy is a hockey player that we nicknamed that... yeah... don't know what his real name is... he's from the Cleveland... umm... The Cleveland... BARONS! That's it... The Cleveland Barons!)
Emma: Hey meggie...
ok... thanks! im glad that we worked this out... yes i like the monkey-boy Meggie 2... hehehe... i dont even kno who the real me is anymore... cuz ive been faking so much stuff and covering up how i really feel for a really long time... but when i am real ppl dont like me... i dunno like carol i talk 2 her online a lot and she got mad @ me 4 when i was real... i kno i am my real self when i am w/ my friend becky... but i just feel like i can never be my complete real self... like its like im a diff person depending on who i am around... i dunno... and like my best friend xtine (not fink) she wants me 2 b just like her even if she doesnt admit it... and i was just like her 4 so long so its hard 4 me 2 b my own person... i dunno...
ya well.. thanks 4 understanding... and again i am really really sorry...
im glad that we worked this out
lots of luv
-emma!
(Recap: I hate you, I hate you too, you annoy me, you annoy me too, my life sucks, so does mine, I love you, I love you too. Tada THE END)
Okay so yeah... that's pretty much it except for JENNT MANCINI AND I MADE UP WOOHOOO! She's not pissed at me... I spent like an hour and a half on the phone with her just talking about old times... the good times... back in 3rd through 7th grade... great times. Yeah so we're good now.
Oh, and we (Anna, Stephanie, Lily, and I) made a movie about William Shakespeare's life... it sucks if you ask me... but I'll let the teachers decide. Hopefully they will be leniant... seeing it is the day before the last day of actual classes... if that made any sence. Yeah okay... well I must go and see if the Shakespeare DVD is burning. Gotta go sleep yay!
-Meggie