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Dear journal,
I have just had a dissapointing afternoon. I took my cal intke up to 1000 maybe. I was out with my friend after school and she suggested we eat something. sadly, i went along with that. I picked a 110 cal pinapple tub and was happy with that. then she bought a huge muffin and a bag of nuts and a humongus baguette the size of my forearm. i sat down, and she popped a muffin on my plate. If only you could have seen my face. Im sure it wos one of the most horrifying expressions i have made. I politely took it back and swapped it for a wholemeal scone. i was still pissed off that i would eating something that i didnt have the exact cal info for.
I eat it up. Then went home and was told to have dinner, i made a mash of 1 potatoe and 5 small carrots with half glass of soy milk a cup of peas half an onion and 2 celery sticks. also some stuffing was plopped on my plate i assume abou 350 cals worth. i felt awful eating it all under the watchful eyes of my household.
my momn and dad.
i had to make it look like i eat.
The day had started off so well...
i had thrown out most of my lunch at shcool only eating a handful of rasperries and half a banana and a small half slice. that was at about 120 cals.
then it was ruined when i found out there like 225 cals in a scone.
and in what i had was probably like 300 cals worth of veg and then stuffing and add the outing with my friend, 995 cals. that is revoulting.
im so ashamed. i want my hip bones to protrude back
i miss you bones! dont worry ill find you!!!!
I will never eat bananas again i think they have amde me gain weight. i dont eat grapes. and i will not eat potatoes anymore. also i wanted to keep i at 500 today, but tomorrow is another day.
Erin