[Text] Won't you die tonight for love?
I've known loneliness in this life, but none so crushing as the despair of having those I consider close and then knowing I would never see them again. Even if Uxie said everything would be fine in the end - and it was - in those last few moments before I succumbed to the stoning, all I could think was how much I needed anybody at my side. If I felt such a thing as I died, I don't remember it. I doubt there was even time. But before that...
I think I can understand why I may have asked Uxie that favour. I wonder if he was there to comfort me as I took my last breath? Was it he who led me into traffic? If only he weren't so vague about it.
Whatever happened, I'm not going to just go and do it all over again this time. The most I can do is do my best to prevent myself from making the same mistakes. That's what this fresh start is for, isn't it? The first step is learning independence. I won't base everything on one or two people no matter how important they are to me because they are unimportant. They will age and die, and I will always be here.
If I am to be alone, I want it to be my choice.
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The nights continue to grow shorter. How disappointing. I suppose I wouldn't mind so much if there were more cloudy days; the sun hurts my eyes too much and makes my skin burn. When is it that the nights start getting longer again? Too far from now for my liking, certainly.
Is it true that there are some places that will experience close to a month of pure sunlight? Goodness. It would be worth it to visit for the opposite, though. I believe I shall keep this in mind.
...It's hard to believe it's only been a little two months since my return. It feels like an eternity. But I suppose I still don't have that much to compare it to. Hm.
I think I can understand why I may have asked Uxie that favour. I wonder if he was there to comfort me as I took my last breath? Was it he who led me into traffic? If only he weren't so vague about it.
Whatever happened, I'm not going to just go and do it all over again this time. The most I can do is do my best to prevent myself from making the same mistakes. That's what this fresh start is for, isn't it? The first step is learning independence. I won't base everything on one or two people no matter how important they are to me because they are unimportant. They will age and die, and I will always be here.
If I am to be alone, I want it to be my choice.
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The nights continue to grow shorter. How disappointing. I suppose I wouldn't mind so much if there were more cloudy days; the sun hurts my eyes too much and makes my skin burn. When is it that the nights start getting longer again? Too far from now for my liking, certainly.
Is it true that there are some places that will experience close to a month of pure sunlight? Goodness. It would be worth it to visit for the opposite, though. I believe I shall keep this in mind.
...It's hard to believe it's only been a little two months since my return. It feels like an eternity. But I suppose I still don't have that much to compare it to. Hm.