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so here i am at 3 in the morning i cant sleep and its fucking pissing me off.
my housemates have all gone home for the summer, so im home alone, sometimes wish i was going home for summer but i have a job here now ad ive paid rent til the end of july and i move into my new house on the 1st of july so rather than waste money i might as well stay living here i have a holiday but its not til the end of august and im only going blackpool but as its all i can afford at the mo i suppose its better than nothing and it will be nice to spend some time with my rents without my delightfully charming younger sister!
oh yes she hates me becos we had a massive row in which i told her that she was throwing her life away and then changed my mind and said she actually threw her life away when she left school without any qualifications to which she replied 'you dont need any qualifications in this life' and well i think you get the idea of where the argument led to well needless to say she went crying to dad who quite funnyily turned around and told her i was actually right with my argument bahahahahahaha oh the joy i got from that!
she had her detailed scan the other day and discovered she was expecting a boy sure she'll have lots of fun when he arrives, ive always been told boys are the worst of the sexes to bring up, and mum was telling me the other day that she plans to give a 'designer' name something along the line of Harvey and like mum says it is her kid but everyone has said the names she has suggested are horrid and yeah i agree but then thats probably becos i want semi traditional names for my kids.
hmmm well im totally loving my job just wished i loved the people that come with my job, i seem to be the outcast amongst the other bar staff simply becos im different, their all trendys and im the only alternative oh the shame! but i shall not hang my head in shame oh no, i shall stand tall and be proud to be who i am.
we had a vicars and tarts fancy dress theme on sunday nite was quite funny, its the 1st time anyone in that place has actually seen my legs and my cleavage hahaha, needless to say i wasnt short of admireres that nite if theres one thing ive learnt from being with ben, its how to dress sexily, a skill im quite proud of acquireing, now i know that sounds totally big headed but i dont mean to be, since my chest seems to be still growing - im now a 32D- i might as well take pride in my only gud looking assets should i not?!?! one guy who has become known as fitty in my household was absolutely gobsmacked when i walked through the door, now this guy has never looked twice at me at all in the time ive worked with him but his jaw almost hit the floor and the way he said my name was a sure sign that he liked what he saw and as much as i fancy him i would turn him down outright simply becos he goes after anything in a skirt all the girls who come into the bar know him by name and they always ask for him, hes a total ladies man and well id probably suffer a case of green eyed monster if i ever got anywhere with him, and my outfit didnt go un noticed by the door staff either which was quite funny too and rather embarrassing all at the same time as i had to walk past them all to get to the bar and comments and up and down looks well kinda pervy but also nice at the same time.
i cant believe i just wrote a whole paragraph about being looked at, ahhh what is my life coming too!!!!
what else is happening in the world of moi? well not alot really, cant go out cos i got no1 to go out with, my love life is no existing after the whole ben thing, was kinda tuff on me really as we'd been seeing each other for over a year and half but hey thats life i suppose.
im missing footballers wives and im sooooooo pisssed off that itv have put the damn show extra time on frigging itv2 i dont have a bloody freeview digi box thing!!!!!!!! arrrrrrggggghhhhhhhh
oooooooooo trons on at 1pm today you know im watching that!! tis a classic film, id ont know why but ive been getting into asian films just lately, with hero, house of flying daggers and casshern, making it into my dvd collection, they do i think need an acquired taste especially casshern as that is some wierd ass movie but at the same time its absolutely stunning, i think my time in canada really paid off for me as im more open minded when it comes to films althought im still unsure as to whether or not im gonna like tim burtons version of willy wonka guess i'll have to wait til that comes out, not long now eh!
well i guess i should try and get some sleep as i have work tonite, work is the only time i get out now, how very sad.
nitey nite x
my housemates have all gone home for the summer, so im home alone, sometimes wish i was going home for summer but i have a job here now ad ive paid rent til the end of july and i move into my new house on the 1st of july so rather than waste money i might as well stay living here i have a holiday but its not til the end of august and im only going blackpool but as its all i can afford at the mo i suppose its better than nothing and it will be nice to spend some time with my rents without my delightfully charming younger sister!
oh yes she hates me becos we had a massive row in which i told her that she was throwing her life away and then changed my mind and said she actually threw her life away when she left school without any qualifications to which she replied 'you dont need any qualifications in this life' and well i think you get the idea of where the argument led to well needless to say she went crying to dad who quite funnyily turned around and told her i was actually right with my argument bahahahahahaha oh the joy i got from that!
she had her detailed scan the other day and discovered she was expecting a boy sure she'll have lots of fun when he arrives, ive always been told boys are the worst of the sexes to bring up, and mum was telling me the other day that she plans to give a 'designer' name something along the line of Harvey and like mum says it is her kid but everyone has said the names she has suggested are horrid and yeah i agree but then thats probably becos i want semi traditional names for my kids.
hmmm well im totally loving my job just wished i loved the people that come with my job, i seem to be the outcast amongst the other bar staff simply becos im different, their all trendys and im the only alternative oh the shame! but i shall not hang my head in shame oh no, i shall stand tall and be proud to be who i am.
we had a vicars and tarts fancy dress theme on sunday nite was quite funny, its the 1st time anyone in that place has actually seen my legs and my cleavage hahaha, needless to say i wasnt short of admireres that nite if theres one thing ive learnt from being with ben, its how to dress sexily, a skill im quite proud of acquireing, now i know that sounds totally big headed but i dont mean to be, since my chest seems to be still growing - im now a 32D- i might as well take pride in my only gud looking assets should i not?!?! one guy who has become known as fitty in my household was absolutely gobsmacked when i walked through the door, now this guy has never looked twice at me at all in the time ive worked with him but his jaw almost hit the floor and the way he said my name was a sure sign that he liked what he saw and as much as i fancy him i would turn him down outright simply becos he goes after anything in a skirt all the girls who come into the bar know him by name and they always ask for him, hes a total ladies man and well id probably suffer a case of green eyed monster if i ever got anywhere with him, and my outfit didnt go un noticed by the door staff either which was quite funny too and rather embarrassing all at the same time as i had to walk past them all to get to the bar and comments and up and down looks well kinda pervy but also nice at the same time.
i cant believe i just wrote a whole paragraph about being looked at, ahhh what is my life coming too!!!!
what else is happening in the world of moi? well not alot really, cant go out cos i got no1 to go out with, my love life is no existing after the whole ben thing, was kinda tuff on me really as we'd been seeing each other for over a year and half but hey thats life i suppose.
im missing footballers wives and im sooooooo pisssed off that itv have put the damn show extra time on frigging itv2 i dont have a bloody freeview digi box thing!!!!!!!! arrrrrrggggghhhhhhhh
oooooooooo trons on at 1pm today you know im watching that!! tis a classic film, id ont know why but ive been getting into asian films just lately, with hero, house of flying daggers and casshern, making it into my dvd collection, they do i think need an acquired taste especially casshern as that is some wierd ass movie but at the same time its absolutely stunning, i think my time in canada really paid off for me as im more open minded when it comes to films althought im still unsure as to whether or not im gonna like tim burtons version of willy wonka guess i'll have to wait til that comes out, not long now eh!
well i guess i should try and get some sleep as i have work tonite, work is the only time i get out now, how very sad.
nitey nite x