What the fuck..........
Damn, I knew it would come but why did it have to be today! I have bin trying so hard to be "normal" this weekend with eating and keeping my fat as of the gym.. But this is not working anymore. I woke up this morning and realised that I had missed my train so I could not go to school as I just have one class today. So I just slept. And now its 12.30 and the anxiety is eating on me. Im shaking in my entire body, I try to just take deep breaths as I dont want to panic. Dont panic, its going to be ok... Just fix some green tea and sit down and relax.. I want to scream. I wish I could cry but I cant.
Im thinking about start writeing on my book again. The sad thing is that I dont see the point in doing it. Its just rambel toughts from me and sometimes I hope that I would be read for someone to relate and mabey get something out of it but.. Who would read it? Who would give it out? What would be my message? What will be the point....?
And I dont have time to do it. Have to much school work. My head is to fucked up and my body just complains all the time..
Going to try to do some school work done today. I feel that I have to. Mabey the anxiety will be less if I get something of my back so I have one thing less to worry about. Its just that, I cant fucking think! My head just spinns and I do get something done, I would not be able to remeber it.. I never do if I do stuff feeling like this.. I can read it the next week and have no memory of ever doing it.
Fuck this. Im of for my green the and deep breaths... Dont panic..
Im thinking about start writeing on my book again. The sad thing is that I dont see the point in doing it. Its just rambel toughts from me and sometimes I hope that I would be read for someone to relate and mabey get something out of it but.. Who would read it? Who would give it out? What would be my message? What will be the point....?
And I dont have time to do it. Have to much school work. My head is to fucked up and my body just complains all the time..
Going to try to do some school work done today. I feel that I have to. Mabey the anxiety will be less if I get something of my back so I have one thing less to worry about. Its just that, I cant fucking think! My head just spinns and I do get something done, I would not be able to remeber it.. I never do if I do stuff feeling like this.. I can read it the next week and have no memory of ever doing it.
Fuck this. Im of for my green the and deep breaths... Dont panic..