May 27, 2007 20:36
i dont DO relationships
i do drugs, i do stupid dances, i do year 12, i do alot of fucknig things
but i dont do relationships.....
why?
because i choose not to follow the dreams of a middle girl
nice man, nice job and a nice house
if thats your cup of tea... fine enjoy it
i justy think there is something more
i want freedom
i want a creative life
i want 4am cupcakes
i want hot sex with girls ie sara (and lee cock LOL)
i want to look they way i do... no questions asked
i want be alone when i need it
i want random cuddles from pretty boys
I DO NOT WANT A BOYFRIEND!
why am i saying all this?
well simply theres a rather sweet young man that i often see around e black at school
who asked me on a date last night via an arkward phone call....
i feel awful but i had to shut the poor boy down
he asked why.....
WHY?!?!
why why why why why!
why dont i want to be tied down to another person when i could be out having fun
why dont i need another person in my life trying to get close to be and not quite understanding what im like
why dont i need another reason to not sleep at night... fucknig trust issues and fear of rejection
of coarse me being me.... the only thing i thought of saying was....
because i enjoy masterbation more than sex....
yes moira great come back there
really smart
i couldnt make a wife even if i wanted too
im fine with being single im happy
sure i may complain about being lonely but thats really only because the peopel i love most live all the way in adleaide
but im happy and coping
and im not about to go fill that lonely distant spot with a random man
speaking of friends... why some of my friends believe being single is some sort of disease
tomorrow im gonig to hear it
a few girls in my fashion class were aware he was interested in me
and they were saying if he asks you HAVE to say yes
well... i said no
sorry girls
but i dont want a boyfriend
hell right now i dont even want a fuck buddy
ive notcied certain people look down on me because i am single
this really gets up my goat
fine you have a boyfriend and you lvoe him
but i dont
this doesnt mean im a random slut
yes i can go a day without cock for a fact
ive been gonig very well not having it for a while
im not irresponable
i just dont want a boyfriend
not everyone lives in the same middle class dreams
please do not judge me on my choices
i am your FRIEND
people seem to forget what this means now days
ok... lastly on friends
my friends mean the world to me
i have three super close friends
one male... two female
i lvoe them both to dead
i tell them i love them
before it go to thing stage with my male friend (mr joe)
i was with my ex
he wasnt happy about me even having anything to do with joe
its almost been a year since that was over
and me and joe are pretty fucknig close
simone deals with it.... not evwen that im pretty sdure simone likes me and knows that im just friends with her boyfriend and i respect them as a couple
(i had to put that in because inm sick of being beaten up by friends girlfriends)
i make an effort to be friends with simone... because shes nice ansd pretty
if i ever decided to have a relationship they can fucknig deal with my close friend having a penis
becuase i know alot of guys arent ok about that
and i remember trying ot stop and ex sending joe an abusive email
also they can deal with miss gee and ashimoo being held higher than god in my eyes
and spoz... well spoz.... lets just say im not to date a jealous type
have i put forward a good enough case to why i dont not do relationships?
do we all respect my desiction now......
good... well fuck if you dont....
heres another good reason...
im a filthy slut and all i wanna do is fuck boys from bands
happy now?