This has been said so many times that I'm not sure if it matters.

[miss_d_pressed]

So today I've had a lot of time to think. Yesterday, when he actually talked to me, I was so eager to hear that he wanted to call me later and actually just talk to me. I thought that I was so excited because that meant I missed our relationship that we had and him. But today I started second guessing myself. The reason I was so happy and excited is because I didn't actually completely lose him. It was like he was there for me again, to talk to, to come to with my problems... as a friend. I realized that it had nothing to do with the relationship that we had. I wanted him as just a friend. I don't want a relationship right now at this point in my life, the way things have been going for me lately. Right now all I want is just a friendship. So I'm sorry, you can forget me completely if you can't handle being friends with me, but if you really love me like you say you do.. you'll stay friends with me, because that makes me happy. And you've always told me you just want me to be happy. Well, here's your chance. I want us to have a friendship, not a relationship. I've taken a lot of time out of my day today to think all of this over. And I've come to that conclusion. Life really is a bitter sweet epiphany....

From day one I talked about getting out
But not forgetting about
How my worst fears are letting out
He said why put a new address
On the same old loneliness
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die
Now talking's just a waste of breath
And living's just a waste of death
And why put a new address
On the same old loneliness
And this is you and me
And me and you
Until we've got nothing left
comb the crowd and pick you out
My mouth moves too fast for you to figure it out
It starts eyes closed to fingers crossed
“To I swear, I say”