I do not even know what to say because i am so tired i can not think =)
So here is the deal people it is definetly 2:30 in the morning and i have a final in the morning and i did not realize i had this final tomorrow i totally thought it was the next day so i find myslef at I-HOP studying for it and things are gonig well but i need to saok in more information very quickly.
Now here is the other thing... This whole school thing is messing me up big time like weather or not to go back and what to do...One thing that i know is that i love social work, i just love it and there is no other way to describe it. I feel like for one time in my life i have some sort of direction and purpose ihave never before felt as though i had any purpose in life, but i feel like i have that now. HOw crazy is that i mean yes i didnt get into the program at my school, but i know that my prupose is to be a social worker and help people and create policy to better serve those around me. ITs a sweet feeling and it is the only thing that is keeping me from giving up on everything right now. I am driven to find a way to accomplish this goal and fullfil my purpose. For the first time i feel like i have somthing to strive for that matters, this matters to me which is amazing!!! iF you know me you would know that hardly anything matters to me that i hardly care about anything. I care about my friends and family and baseball, and thats it i feel like i should care about more than that and i dont but slowly i can add more things to my list. I can offically add becoming a social worker to my list of things that i truely care about. I have a purpose.
Now here is the other thing... This whole school thing is messing me up big time like weather or not to go back and what to do...One thing that i know is that i love social work, i just love it and there is no other way to describe it. I feel like for one time in my life i have some sort of direction and purpose ihave never before felt as though i had any purpose in life, but i feel like i have that now. HOw crazy is that i mean yes i didnt get into the program at my school, but i know that my prupose is to be a social worker and help people and create policy to better serve those around me. ITs a sweet feeling and it is the only thing that is keeping me from giving up on everything right now. I am driven to find a way to accomplish this goal and fullfil my purpose. For the first time i feel like i have somthing to strive for that matters, this matters to me which is amazing!!! iF you know me you would know that hardly anything matters to me that i hardly care about anything. I care about my friends and family and baseball, and thats it i feel like i should care about more than that and i dont but slowly i can add more things to my list. I can offically add becoming a social worker to my list of things that i truely care about. I have a purpose.