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I can not believe that it is the end of january almost... i go back to school really soon and that is going to be hard becasue this whole healing process is taking a lot longer than i had anticipated. so my surgey was exactly 1 month ago today and i still pretty much can not do anything. I am supposed to fly back next sunday but i still can not sit down so there is a good possabiliy that my parents will be driving me and its bad because we dont have the time or the money. I am at an emotional breaking point with myself because i want things to be normal again but they are not. i didnt get down to see my sister because it was too much traveling and my body could not handle it so that was sad but some how i am not that upset about it because of what happened at christmas time. that should be all water under the bridge but what ever. I went to my brothers for two days though i am not sure if it was his idea or my moms so thats weird me and him really are not as close as we used to be a year or so after he moved that was kinda it for us. now i mean i did have a good time with him but the ride back was wierd he asked me about deb and chris as always which i am put in the middle of that relationship by everyone involved. on the way home though my brother started asking me all this stuff about my relationship with God... For some reason because i lost that bond i used to have with him and i dont feel as though i can trust him i lied. and i feel bad for that i want to tell him the truth but something is holding me back... He asked me if i felt like i was missing somthing all i had to do was say yes and i couldnt do it and i am not sure why.
Everything this break has just been a bit more than i expected. i though that five or six weeks after after my surgery i'd be good as new....i guess they dont lie when they say 6 to 14 weeks and some times maybe longer welll for me i get the 14 weeks of recovery time and maybe longer so thats hard. School will be a challenge and i can not have a job right now either. I have to work out accomodations with the school still about how i can attend classes and stuff so we will see. Oh ya and i still can not drive. however i guess things should get better from here on out though
Everything this break has just been a bit more than i expected. i though that five or six weeks after after my surgery i'd be good as new....i guess they dont lie when they say 6 to 14 weeks and some times maybe longer welll for me i get the 14 weeks of recovery time and maybe longer so thats hard. School will be a challenge and i can not have a job right now either. I have to work out accomodations with the school still about how i can attend classes and stuff so we will see. Oh ya and i still can not drive. however i guess things should get better from here on out though