stupid satan
So I have been going through a REALLY hard time in my life. I found out a girl who I thought was my friend was talking crap about me behind my back, calling me "bipolar" and wondering "what guys saw in me" and you know what? It really hurt. It brought back memories from when my dad verbally abused us. But you know what? At least he had enough balls to say it to my face and I knew we were not on good terms. Then my best friend stood me up taking the other girls side. I cant stand it. I NEED MY FRIENDS BACK. I miss you all so much and it tears me up at night. I have been crying myself to sleep. It kills. I feel so alone. I know I am not, but I cant help it, you know? And then we found out my uncle has cancer [so i know how you feel Britt]. He lives in Arizona and we usually see him at Christmas. But this Christmas, he will be in the middle of chemo and radiation.
I think what this is....is Satan {lucifer} attacking me. God and I have been on great terms. I am finally able to understand the Bible for myself anf discover things I never knew before. I also am working with my church in AWANAS. I am a Sparks leader [they are kindergartners] and I already am in love with them. But the devil is killing me. I am at lost of what to do.