dreams
Well, last night I had one of my recurring themes in my dream. I dreamed I had a baby. At least, this time I wasn't a horrible mother but I wasn't stellar either. I'm glad to see I'm getting better in my dreams though. Maybe there's hope me yet. So, the dream was once again I magically had a baby and dind't even know I was pregnant. This time I had a boy. I thought he was beautiful. I even managed to hold him, feed him, and show some signs of love towards him. The reason I wasn't stellar was because I went half a day and realized I hadn't fed him yet. I didn't name him either. Then I realized I didn't know who the father was. At first, I thought that Alex was in no way even a possibility but then I thought about it and was like "I've been sleeping with him for so long...why not?" But, for some reason, I felt like it was this other guys. There was no way to just look at the baby and know. The other guy i thought it could have been is black and Alex is mexican but between the 3 of us we all could have made a brown baby. lol...Later in my dream, I felt in my heart it was Alex's and couldn't even remember ever thinking differently. completely wierd...