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i never post in this thing. probably because i dont care, probably because i dont have much to say anymore.
i am so exhausted, ive never felt like this before. i am physically, mentally, and emotionally drained. i could sleep for a week if i had the time. i feel like i have devoted myself to way too many things, and that i have way too many expectations placed over me. i feel like a broken record..."if i had time i would.." over and over again. i wish i had a hobby. i wish i went and did things i wanted to do, not that i HAD to do. there is always this sense of urgency with me...i HAVE to be here at this time, i HAVE to work this shift. i HAVE to wake up at 630 am. i HAVE to be mad about what that person did to me.
this is totally the wrong way to live.
what happened to my creative spirit? what happened to my interest in music and art? what happened to my will to try new things, go new places, find new things to do?
i don't have time.
at least it will all be over after christmas.
no more 5 classes, no more 17 credit hours.
i get to go home in like 3 hours.
thank god.
i am so exhausted, ive never felt like this before. i am physically, mentally, and emotionally drained. i could sleep for a week if i had the time. i feel like i have devoted myself to way too many things, and that i have way too many expectations placed over me. i feel like a broken record..."if i had time i would.." over and over again. i wish i had a hobby. i wish i went and did things i wanted to do, not that i HAD to do. there is always this sense of urgency with me...i HAVE to be here at this time, i HAVE to work this shift. i HAVE to wake up at 630 am. i HAVE to be mad about what that person did to me.
this is totally the wrong way to live.
what happened to my creative spirit? what happened to my interest in music and art? what happened to my will to try new things, go new places, find new things to do?
i don't have time.
at least it will all be over after christmas.
no more 5 classes, no more 17 credit hours.
i get to go home in like 3 hours.
thank god.