The Big T.O.

[miss_barnacle]

Never fret Victoria friends, I am safe in this big city across the land. Hung around downtown today and spent far too much money mostly on food. I need to be more careful over the next couple days. But as I'm pretty sure these toronto days will be the last time I spend money for about 2 weeks, I guess it's all good. So, hung around. Met some camp friends for supper then went to a Cabaret show at Adam's work. That was neat but that the MC kept making racist comments and then peed on the stage. I remember hearing about concerts where people would do that and fans loved it. I always thought it was lame. That's how I feel about a lot of debauchery, not all of it though. Definately at least some of the things I've done.

I'd feel a little weird saying that I'm entirely safe as I was grabbed downtown today by a random guy. I pushed him off me and pretty much immediately afterwards started to feel like shit for doing it. It's amazing to me how much a victim in our society can be made to feel like complete shit. I couldn' help thinking, 'maybe he just needed directions, perhaps he has a mental illness, maybe he needed money.' Funny. I've never really been physically violated by a complete stranger before. It wasn't that much, nothing I couldn't solve with a "no!" and a shove, but it was still a strange experience that I may reflect on in here again later.

There's more i'd like to write but the keyboard is really loud and the boys are sleeping. Good night.