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as i was reading rebecca's livejournal the other day, i was struck with the sudden thought that i'm over high school days. notes about how band camp is awesome in numerous boone kids lj's and how 'becca went the other day to help the drum majors out...it was cute and made me smile a little, but also made me realize that i'm far removed from it now. earlier this spring i contemplated scheduling my summer based on whenever high school band camp was, but as i mentioned in a comment, i'm slowly running out of reasons to ever return to that school for anything, let alone anything band related. after this class of seniors graduates, this group of kids that were my little freshmen and drum major fanclub starters, i won't know anybody in the band. aside from my little sister and like two of her friends, but even then nobody knows who i am and what i did and all the memories prior to their entry. i could go back, but why? i've been gone two years, mr. henderson has turned the band into something different; while change is good and most of the changes are as such, it's unfamiliar to me and contains no remnants of my band memories prior to when he showed up. another thing, the last of the simpsonites graduated this past spring....nobody remembers that man and what he did for our band, even if he was a dick sometimes. nobody is around to remember who everything matters to.
it's not so much that i don't care what happens to the band from here on out, that's not very kkpsi of me. it's just...it's out of my hands now, it's these younger kids turn. if they succeed, hooray, if they fail, it's not the end of the world. and eventually they'll follow me, like i've apparently followed all the kids older than me, 'cause that's the way it is. besides, i have my own band to focus on now, my own new freshman to mold in just 2 short weeks.
i guess then, good luck this year sound of the braves, enjoy your band camp. you might see me at the homecoming game or the edgewater game but that's it. it's time for me to let the others kids do their "i've just graduated, but viva high school band!" thing. it was a good run, i'll smile on it fondly again one of these days.
everything matters....
it's not so much that i don't care what happens to the band from here on out, that's not very kkpsi of me. it's just...it's out of my hands now, it's these younger kids turn. if they succeed, hooray, if they fail, it's not the end of the world. and eventually they'll follow me, like i've apparently followed all the kids older than me, 'cause that's the way it is. besides, i have my own band to focus on now, my own new freshman to mold in just 2 short weeks.
i guess then, good luck this year sound of the braves, enjoy your band camp. you might see me at the homecoming game or the edgewater game but that's it. it's time for me to let the others kids do their "i've just graduated, but viva high school band!" thing. it was a good run, i'll smile on it fondly again one of these days.
everything matters....