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I feel so lost at the moment.
I don't really feel part of anything right now.
like theres me, and then the world a billion miles away.
It's a strange feeling, I don't know where it came from, but I'm not enjoying it.
I've not really had anyone for a while, and I'm struggling sticking it out on my own. I've run out of motivation, of life, of caring, of excitment, of everything, really.
I feel like I need someone to take my hand and show me the way, and make the world ok again, but no ones gonna do that. No one cares quite enough. I'm not saying people don't care, I'm pretty sure they do, just not enough.
Theres so much going on right now, and I don't think people understand how, and why things upset me so much.
No one gets how close I am to my lil bro, how much I've looked after him, and he's looked after me. And he really isn't helping matters right now.
I really wish someone could just be here. Anyone.
But they're not.
I don't really feel part of anything right now.
like theres me, and then the world a billion miles away.
It's a strange feeling, I don't know where it came from, but I'm not enjoying it.
I've not really had anyone for a while, and I'm struggling sticking it out on my own. I've run out of motivation, of life, of caring, of excitment, of everything, really.
I feel like I need someone to take my hand and show me the way, and make the world ok again, but no ones gonna do that. No one cares quite enough. I'm not saying people don't care, I'm pretty sure they do, just not enough.
Theres so much going on right now, and I don't think people understand how, and why things upset me so much.
No one gets how close I am to my lil bro, how much I've looked after him, and he's looked after me. And he really isn't helping matters right now.
I really wish someone could just be here. Anyone.
But they're not.