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I don't want to go to bed because I know that I'm just going to lie there and feel so utterly alone. I hate it. I lie there wishing that I could be in bed with someone, and I don't mean that in a sexual or a 'I want a boyfriend' way, just in the way that when I can't sleep because I'm worrying too much, I want to be held, and to hold. Because then I might not feel like I'm the only person in the world with any interest in my problems. I need someone to help me, but I don't know what help to ask for, and I don't know who to ask. Especially because I've spent so much time being solitary. Really regretting that now.