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Things have gotten much better. Maybe its the new month. :)
Matthew and I had a great talk last night. Earlier in the evening I had to watch my mom's friends daughter. I wasn't really looking forward to it because I wasn't having a good day, but I managed, then after I got home I let out everything I had held in that day. I had myself a pretty good cry.
Anyway, after, I was sitting there thinking. I really wish he'd call again tonight. We had talked earlier in the day, but I needed to hear his voice. It was a little late, so I didn't want to call knowing he had to be up early for work today. I was just sitting there thinking I wish I could talk to him about all I've been feeling. The only reason I haven't is because being an emotional wreck, I'd start to cry and he wouldn't be able to understand a word I said. But not too long after that my cell phone rang. It was him. I answered and asked what he was doing. He said "Just laying here...trying to dry my tears."
I couldn't believe it. The one thing I've been needing to hear. We went on to talk about some other things that we've been feeling and it was a great talk. I'm still sad about being so far away from him, but thats to be expected. Things are going a little bit better and hopefully they'll continue to get better. Matthew might even be able to come to my cousins wedding, which would be nice. He might not make it, unless he's able to fly out Friday instead of Saturday. Either way, we'll work it out and it'll be a fabulous day! I have a countdown going! This has really been a good thing...as much as it sucks its showing us how much we need eachother and on my part, made me realize just how much I love him...
So here's to feeling better!!
Matthew and I had a great talk last night. Earlier in the evening I had to watch my mom's friends daughter. I wasn't really looking forward to it because I wasn't having a good day, but I managed, then after I got home I let out everything I had held in that day. I had myself a pretty good cry.
Anyway, after, I was sitting there thinking. I really wish he'd call again tonight. We had talked earlier in the day, but I needed to hear his voice. It was a little late, so I didn't want to call knowing he had to be up early for work today. I was just sitting there thinking I wish I could talk to him about all I've been feeling. The only reason I haven't is because being an emotional wreck, I'd start to cry and he wouldn't be able to understand a word I said. But not too long after that my cell phone rang. It was him. I answered and asked what he was doing. He said "Just laying here...trying to dry my tears."
I couldn't believe it. The one thing I've been needing to hear. We went on to talk about some other things that we've been feeling and it was a great talk. I'm still sad about being so far away from him, but thats to be expected. Things are going a little bit better and hopefully they'll continue to get better. Matthew might even be able to come to my cousins wedding, which would be nice. He might not make it, unless he's able to fly out Friday instead of Saturday. Either way, we'll work it out and it'll be a fabulous day! I have a countdown going! This has really been a good thing...as much as it sucks its showing us how much we need eachother and on my part, made me realize just how much I love him...
So here's to feeling better!!