i want to live life.
Lately of been in that "defying life " phase. I really need something to spark my life up. I've been thinking alot about somebody really special. She really makes me happy when I talk to her. Well, i guess this little stage has sprouted from not talking to her in a while. I don't know. Sometimes, I feel like I want to sit someplace with my friends, and just not talk. I still want my friends to be there, because I feel comfortable with them. I just feel so unsocial at times. Nobody really comes up to talk to me..I always have to talk to them. I don't know if that's just a coinsedence, or what. I've been thinking to myself,"Maybe I just wasn't meant to have anybody." Others disagree with me when I say that, but what if it's true? What if I really wasn't meant for anybody? these "what ifs" are killing me. I'm just going to sit back and let it all come to me. Whatever it may be. Though, I have said that a numerous amount of times, I really want to pursue it this time. Well, I'm probably depressing all of you...so I will stop. If anybody wants to talk...jstu call me. *897-3747.
goodbye.
goodbye.